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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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hey @Former-Member its currently minus 2....i have 5 layers +gloves on while i type this. hope youre ok

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Wow Red, that's cold. I was asleep on the beach when your message came through. Feeling really calm today and that is a wonderful feeling. 💖Izzy

@The-red-centaur

@Lee82 , just a little worried my love. Please check in with a support when you can. 💖Izzy

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Izzy, you're back, so good to see you and know that you feel calm 🙂 I really like the picture of you sitting on a sunny beach listening to the waves and feeling sleepy. @Former-Member

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Hey beautiful. Welcome back babe. I'm so happy to hear you have been feeling really calm today laying on the beach. Wish I was there with you. 💗 love you always and forever my bff.

@Former-Member

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Hey I'm so sorry I haven't been on much today I am not coping very well today. I have slept most of the day.
@Former-Member

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That's ok Mel, I am sorry your not coping today. I haven't been on much either. Anything you want to talk about? Love you always

@Lee82

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I just feel like I can't do this anymore. The pressure to get better is weighing heavily on my shoulders and I can't cope with it. I am sick and tired of people asking me if I feel better today with this hope in their eyes that some how it is miraculously going to be better overnight. I'm tires and I want to sleep all of the time. I don't want to deal with the days anymore.
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I am so sorry Mel, I fell asleep it feels like that is all I am doing at the moment.

I know that feeling, one session of horse therapy and I am meant to be cured!!! Just hold on honey, we both can do this, we both deserve to do this and have a better life. I am sorry you are at this point though, wishing I could give you a hug right now. I love you 3000 @Lee82

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thinking of you both, hoping that the afternoon is a little easier
@Former-Member @Lee82 🧡

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Wish I could have that hug babe right now. Not in a good mental state right now.
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