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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Good morning gorgeous Nikki. Not feeling great today my friend. I hope you have a good day today.
love you 3000...💗

@Former-Member

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Do you want to talk about it my friend friend

@Lee82

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Someone save me from cleaning out the fridge and freezer. 😂😡😭

@Lee82 @Bunniekins @NatureLover @outlander @Shaz51 @Zoe7 @Sans911 @Eve7 @Pollyotter

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Just feels like nothing is ever going to get batter. Feeling very overwhelmed. Anxiety is through the roof and all I want to do is run away.
@Former-Member

what is the f**king point anymore

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I get it Mel, I really do and it's hard. Hard to believe we all can have a better life then the one we are currently living or not living depending on our issues. Your boys are the point, you are the point and your friends as well. I have learnt the hard way that it's up to yourself to really want it and when things are this dark, this hard it seems impossible. But you are stronger than you think, braver than you feel and most importantly loved beyond what you thinks is possible. 💜 you to the moon and back my gorgeous friend @Lee82

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I love to help you @Former-Member

hugs @Lee82 , @Bunniekins , @NatureLover , @outlander

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Uhhhh still going on the freezer it's taking forever Shaz, I don't think the fridge is I'll get done today. 😞😂 @Shaz51

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My friend, are you ok? @Lee82

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I don't feel strong and sometimes I don't even feel like I want it anymore.
@Former-Member

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I get it Mel, and it breaks my heart you feel this way. Wish there was something I could do or say to take your pain away. Are you safe @Lee82

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