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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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We love Mrs Doubtfire but haven't seen XXX. I am

glag we don't do Izzy's children's laundry anymore, she would iron and fold it all nicely to find it on the floor the next day. Use to annoy the F out of me. Just finished paint pouring again. I won't share Kimmys as that psycho 5 yr old would have a fit. 😂

I hope Izzy doesn't get cranky because I done hers. 😂 @Lee82 @outlander @Former-Member

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@Former-Member

Lol...can't wait to see the image. I'm sure Izzy will be ok with you filling in for her tonight with paint pouring.
Im guessing kimmy did one too? Did she do the butterfly for @Former-Member ?

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Yeah Izzy will be fine with it as I used the colours she wanted to use. Kimmy indeed did her butterfly for @Former-Member but also did something for @Bunniekins 😂 If you want some paint pouring art done by a 5 dedicated to you, you have have to say hello and something nice to her and you get one. 😂 Are you boys in bed Mel. @Lee82

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Kimmy has already done a painting for me. It is actually my screen saver on my phone now. It was of the word smile.
I love chatting with kimmy. I hope she knows just how special she is to me.

Yea boys are in bed and I'm on the couch watching tv.
@Former-Member

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The image has just come theough. Loving the word believe. You did a great job. I'm sure Izzy will be very happy!!

Can I ask what you are going to do with all these words that you all have painted? Will you hang them up?
@Former-Member

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@outlander You still around honey? How's the folding going?

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Thank you gorgeous, these ones will be hung in the lounge but Sean and our neighbour think we should make more to sell. I am unsure it will be up to Izzy. Just getting ready for bed as meds are finally kicking in. I hope you get some decent sleep my beautiful BFF ❤️ Nikki

@Lee82

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Hope you can get some rest too beautiful.
love you to infinity and beyond. 💗

@Former-Member

i think you should sell them too...😘😘

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your painting looks good @Former-Member
I use to do the fluid art too, I haven't done it in nearly a yr now though. stopped doing that when the whole family I gave them to (after they asked for them) threw them out into the garbage-not even donated to salvation army etc. I don't really paint or draw much anymore but I do love seeing others artworks

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im still here @Lee82
I just had a shower. ive folded all he clothes but haven't put them away yet. im worn out physically so im going to make a tea and see if I can mange that before bedtime.
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