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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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This sounds so good @Former-Member , and Ella sounds just what you needed! I'm so glad.

And I'm also glad you were there for 3 hours - somehow I thought it was only for an hour, which didn't seem long enough, so that's really good 🙂

I hope your anxiety eases after a rest...

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I am sooo happy for you!!

💙🧡💙

@Former-Member

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Sounds lovely @Former-Member . I hope your evening is relaxing and peaceful. 💙💙🐴🐴

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I am so happy you were able to have some sort of peace and feel like yourself again for a few hours today babe. It started off rough but ended well and hopefully in time after doing this sort of therapy over a long period will help you feel like you again even longer. I am so so happy for you babe. that was a success and another win for you. I hope that will continue for you my beautiful friend
Love you always.
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Hello everyone, I am Kimberly (alter). Unfortunately Izzy has not been able to cope tonight so you get me. I hope that is ok. It was super emotional for her today but it was an amazing feeling feeling afterwards, while she still can't be touched she did manage to kiss Sean once and it brought the feeling of love back for just a moment and emotion she struggles with here in the real world because she doesn't feel worthy of it from anyone including her children. @Former-Member it was a wonderful experience and while not all of "us" are excited to go back Izzy is. @NatureLover , it was only an hour session the 3 hours was of Izzy feeling like herself for the first time in months. Thanks @Eve7 and @Maggie . @Zoe7 , I don't know weather I will say/explain it correctly but when Izzy saw you name today it really touched her and I know she is very happy to "see" you. @Lee82 , wishing there was more I could do to make you see your worth honey. Miss our little chats. @outlander, I know Izzy feels for you little one. I am sorry she is not here to sit with you longer. Thank you all for being such wonderful supports for Izzy she really doesn't get it from anyone other than Sean here in the real world. Thank you all for listening to me ramble. 💜Kimberly

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Thanks Kimberly for coming on to explain...I understand now how the horse therapy was only 1 hour but the effects lasted longer. That's great. So happy @Former-Member felt like herself for 3 hours. Thanks again Kimberly 🙂

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Hi Kimberly, and thank you for updating us on behalf of @Former-Member . Pretty sure I havent met you before, and Izzy said you arent around much lately. So its an unexpected pleasure to see you here now ... and of course its okay!

I am really sorry and concerned that Izzy is not coping well tonight. Though I am happy that she has Sean there to help keep her safe.

I'm sure Izzy will check in when she can. Again ... thanks Kimberly.

Sherry 💕

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@Former-Member 💗

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I'm just a little worried about you my love

@Former-Member

Are you ok?

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