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Darkness

Darkness

Well it's been a hellish few weeks, I have fallen into the rabbit hole and there seems no escape this time. The darkness has come and it thicker than the fires of hell.

Things just don't seem to going right at all and my MH is just getting worse and worse. Not sleeping (afraid to sleep) not eating and not taking my meds. I know this doesn't help but why bother because when I am on them I either feel zone out or that they do nothing anyways. I didn't make it work today, got to the front and was physically sick and froze again. Crawled back into bed where I stayed untill I had an unexpected call.

My 3 main MH professional and I in a conference call, at the end of the call I was given a choice be sectioned or have my ex move back in temporarily to provide around the clock monitoring, this means for at least two weeks of him being here making sure I eat, take my meds and be present for all appointments and no SH. I am not happy about either option but because of teenager trauma in a MH hospital I am taking the ex.

I will not be as active as normal but I will check in. but like tonight, I may just support posts as I am struggling to even type this. So @Snowie @eth @Lee82 @Eden1919 @Purplerain @Lotusgirl amd anyone I missed I will be getting the care I need and will be safe. To some of the newest forum members please forgive me if it takes a bit for me to get back to you.

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Glad your feeling better about your work situation today @Angels333 .

I wish you all the luck for Monday and will be waiting to here all about it. Much love to you sweets

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I would politely decline if your not up for it. Drinking for you is probably not the best thing right now. You call obviously but put yourself first not her. @Lee82

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Yea I know what your saying and you are completely right but the guilt is killing me. For her to ask me to come over she must need someone to talk to.

@Former-Member

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Have you seen the monster today gorgeous?

@Former-Member

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If you want to go to her then do it babe, you know what is best for you. 😘

😭😭😭😭 yes 😞😞😞😞😞

@Lee82

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Promise me no drinking and driving Mel. @Lee82

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@Former-Member wrote:

😭😭😭😭 yes 😞😞😞😞😞


@Former-Member it sounds like you've had a terrible day...just wanted to say I'm here for the next little while if you need distraction. I've learnt my lesson though and if I start feeling sleepy I'll sign off. It won't happen yet though.

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Hey lovely, it's was horrible. My gorgeous son decided to visit and he doesn't know that much about my C-PTSD and decided to surprise me he walked up behind me and touched my shoulder. Full blown panic attack in front of everyone. While I calmed down Sean explain to him what was happening. The poor boy didn't want to leave me for hours, he saw my sh marks and demanded to know what Sean was doing to help me. He didn't realise that he angry was triggering me as well. I managed to keep it together to have a really good take to him and I was completely honest (leaving out what his father done a couple of weeks ago) When sean took him home I fell big time to the monster. So sorry for dumping on you Nature.

💜🌵 @NatureLover 🌵💜

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Don't be sorry @Former-Member at all. I'm so sorry you had a massive panic attack 😞 And I'm sorry that the SH monster has been bothering you so much lately 😞

But I am so impressed that after a big panic atrack you pulled it together for your son and were able to talk to him honestly - well done 🙂

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It's was a huge struggle, I completely fell apart again after he left. But it's all good I guess, he knows everything now so we will see weather he leaves me like everyone who finds out the truth. @NatureLover

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