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Yea I found the same problem you can only try and speak to them and see what they say. They may make an exception seeing as the only places you can find are very far away.
@outlander

how are the kids going?
I will answer your question I am just trying to find the right words as @Former-Member had been asking me all day too and yes I have been avoiding that question for a few days now

Sweetie you ok? @Former-Member

Outlander, thanks for the offer of help with my equine therapy, it has actually helped settle some of my stress around it, huge thank you honey. I am so sorry about what happened to trigger you. The dam audacity of him to smile and wave, I completely understand how that would have felt. Wishing I could give you a huge hug little one. 🦖🦕 @outlander 🦖🦕

Mel, sorry it's taken so long to get back to you babe. Thank you for your kind words and support. I am doing much better tonight after two naps today. The monster hasn't reared it's head of a couple of hours so that's a win. Please answer outlander about how you are doing, you can't the support you need if you won't tell anyone. I am going to ask you again to stop holding back because of me. Because I have great support in Nat and Sean I would rather remove myself from the fourms so you can get the support from everyone here. I know you won't want me to do that but look at it from my point of view, I have the support irl that you don't and you holding back here is not really that good for you. I love you so much my love.

🌸💖 @Lee82 💖🌸

I am so glad izzy you are feeling a little better. And well done with keeping the monster away. That is a win hun.
please don't remove yourself from the forum honey like I said earlier I wouldn't be able to handle it.
It has been extremely rough since the weekend. A few things have happened that I of course cannot talk about on the forum and I am just trying to deal with the effects of all that right now. I have no one irl to turn to and so I am doing my best to deal with it by myself. @Former-Member @outlander

things are just going down hill right now

I second what @outlander said you are not alone. Yes we can't be descriptive and we have to watch we share but you have the support here my love, you really need to use it more. You are just as important as anyone else and you matter to a lot of people here. I will never willing leave the fourms, I have made some amazing friends here and you mean too much to me. Please share what's going on for you always and try not to worry where I am at. It's my choice weather to respond or just take a little time out if it's too much for me. I love you 3000 Mel @Lee82

I am trying to be as mindful as I possibly can because things have been quite sensitive around here lately and a few members have gone rogue and I kind of feel like I may have contributed to that.

I am trying to be as mindful as I possibly can because things have been quite sensitive around here lately and a few members have gone rogue and I kind of feel like I may have contributed to that.
Saturday with the unexpected visit from my cousins sent me into a world of pain. The monster was not too kind to me and I needed medical attention.

I also had SI and almost went through with it.
I can't thank you both enough for not giving up on me. @Former-Member @outlander

it has been a nightmare and it continues to plague me

Me too sweetie, but as Sans said to me the other night we can't undo what has been done we need to move pass it and just be more aware of how we share. I am sorry what happened the weekend has you feeling like everything is going down hill babe. Please keep talking to us. @Lee82

@outlander , your welcome sweetie. Just wish I could help you more

@Lee82 the notification lag is frustrating

the forums can be a sensitive place, people do move forward though, and its never just one particular person/event that causes these things. i know lots of people here have been havng a few things offline occuring and its kind of just gotten to messy for them to be well anywhere and just need to get themselves right first.

im really sorry about the sh monster coming out though and that you needed medical attention. are you ok now? im really glad that you sought out help offline too though for what you needed.

gosh those unexpected things can be really hard cant they, sometimes what seems small to others can be really huge for us.

can i ask if your psychologist has been helping you? im not sure if your still seeing her?