Tough Times

You didn't come across harsh babe. 💗
thank you for saying all that my beautiful friend. It's just hard to believe it. I need to believe I'm not a waste of space but it's just how I feel.
@Former-Member

Oh how I wish you would believe it my sweet. Your other friends and myself see it all the time. Chin up beautiful you got this. @Lee82

I have to try an eat so I will be back soon. What is on the menu for everyone else tonight? @mudsum @Zoe7 @Former-Member @Sans911 @SpiderLady @The-red-centaur @Appleblossom @Former-Member @Shaz51

@Former-Member,

Can totally relate to that!

@Lee82 Yep, I second @Former-Member

You definitely deserve to be celebrated for Mothers Day. You are such an amazing mum even though you don't feel it. All the things Izzy has said are true. Kids are surprisingly resilient, and it isn't a bad thing being mentally unwell. He will grow up knowing there are sometimes situations where people are suffering through no fault of their own, and hopefully he will develop empathy and compassion for others.

Thank you @Sans911. that was so nice of you to say. I have heard negative things about myself my whole life so to hear some positives from my friends on the forum is really nice and refreshing.
how is your night going?

@Lee82 , this is where I get to stick my tongue out at you as said I told you so. :tongue:

Love you 3000 gorgeous

Well night has turn to utter s**t I haven't had my meds as I need to be awake for the ambulance to call me back. My mother need to go to hospital, not life threatening. But it was up to me to call the ambulance and I can't do it, for nearly ten minutes I froze, then couldn't stop crying. Turns out this is a trigger for my ptsd as I had to call an ambulance for the client who assaulted me. I did it though, I may not have been able to control my shaking since and have been sick a couple of times but I did it. Hey but according to my return to work coordinator (who has no medical or psychological training) I should be able to return to work on Monday. Yep, in the aged care community I should be right, shut in homes with people with behavioural issues and who I may have to call and ambulance for!! I freaked out walking when a guy yelled at his son so yep 👍 work here I come. 😞

Hi @Lee82

I'm so sorry you are struggling so much at the moment. Feeling like a failure in so many facets of your life is hard enough as it is but when this is reinforced by a voice inside your head of a critical and/or abusive parent who should have loved, encouraged and protected you, it makes this sense of failure all the more painful. No child (or inner child) deserves this - including you!

I can imagine that these feeling would feel so much more intense with Mother's Day being this Sunday.

How are you travelling @Lee82?

Kindest,

Amour_Et_Psyché