I am sorry to ask this I just really need someone to bounce ideas with.

I am sorry to ask this I don’t mean to be annoying everyone I just need someone tell me what they think even if I don’t agree with you or if it seems like I am not listening or I don’t know how to explain it I am just really scared and stressed right now and I am trying very hard to keep how I am supposed to be here but I am having a lot of trouble.

i will try and keep this as short as I can but I have been having trouble communicating with my psychiatrist and don’t fele like he is understanding me and then someone (I literally have no idea who) apparently called the crisis team about me and then they came to my house today and they only left recently but basically for a while I keep thinking that everyone around me is not a real human and that they are all secretly polotting to harm me but that they just look like people but aren’t and basically I have been trying to ignore this stuff and say to myself there is nothing I can do even if I am right but all the stuff that has been happening in the last month about has been making me feel this a lot more strongly.

reason 1: my psychiatrist why should they keep ignoring me when I was telling them I was not ok I was honest with them and told them things I have never told anyone after getting out of the hospital and since then they have been ignoring me and just being really weird in general and not how they used to be.

reason 2: my family has also been acting weird they and my psychiatrist keep ignoring me when I say I am not coping and basically leave me to just my own devices when I have been feeling really unsafe. They act like nothing is happening and they keep feeding me food that is making me feel sick (which I think is poisoned and also has something in it to control a thing that was put inside me)

reason 3: when I was in the hospital they let me out way too easy they hardly even asked anything and just said I could go this was after I had been there for a few days and the day I went in there I don’t remember anything but a few things and I think they did something to me in that time and put a device in me to try and control my thoughts.

Reason 4: the crisis team who works for the hospital called out of the blue why I didn’t talk to anyone but this makes me think they are all watching me and also listening to my thoughts. And they keep talking to me and asking about the voices (the voices that I am not supposed to talk about) why did they know about those I didn’t tell them why did they ask.

reason 5: the virus stuff they knew I was getting close to getting away from them and so they had to do something big to stop me, there is more on this but it is hard to explain.

‘There are other things but I can’t talk about them because nothing is safe maybe they have been reading this stuff on the forums. But now I don’t think it is safe to eat anything and I don’t trust anyone and I am not even sure I can trust people on here if you are all even people but this is the last place I can go I know everyone around me isn’t safe to trust but I am also trying to find a reason that this isn’t happening but everything keeps pointing to it and I can’t ingore it anymore I feel really scared now like I need to get away from everyone.