Voluntary Hospital Admission, I want To, But I'm Scared.

Hi I'm Leesu and it's been awhile for me on this site.

I have a question and I'm hoping someone can help.

Things haven't been great for me. Last year I was diagnosed with OCD (Obsessive Thoughts) i've dealt with Anxiety and Depression for years.

Now I think just before Christmas i started to here voices in my head and on Christmas eve i gave birth to my second child who was 4 weeks early.

For the last 6 months i've tried to cope as best as i could and linked back with my Psychologist alog with my GP and also saw a Psychriatrist whom recommended i change my medication as I was feeling like they were no longer effective.

Now i have been on the new medication for only 2 weeks. I felt great the first 3 days then have gone downhill. I had an episode on the 5th day where I screamed at the local park, ran onto the raod and started to pull my hair out. My Partner got me off the road and stopped me from pulling my hair out. He calmed me down but the voices started screaming at me and were convincing me to open the car door while we were driving on the highway.

I didn't go and see anyone but i know I should have straight away..

The weekend gone past i had another episode yet this one is more serious this time. I self-harmed and have now scared myself and my partner to the point where I feel like admitting myself because I don't know how to deal with it anymore.

I just wanna know if anyone can tell me what its like and should I feel as scared as what I do? If I admit myself, will i still have some control over what they recommend?