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Inpatient with an eating disorder

The-red-centaurSenior Contributor07 Nov 2019, 8:26 pm AEDT

Inpatient with an eating disorder

I'm so scared. They're making me eat and I can't deal with it.

Let me explain...

I've been in hospital the last 6 weeks on a medical ward due to the physical injuries of a suicide attempt and I'm going to be in here we'll into the new year. The thing is I struggle with an eating disorder. They've become aware of it (despite the fact I'm not underweight) and have been heavily monitoring and controling my intake.

I feel so out of control.

I broke down at dinner and just couldn't do it. I can't eat anymore. I just can't.

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The-red-centaurSenior Contributor19 Dec 2019, 11:06 pm AEDT

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I just can't eat anymore. I can't do it. I tried to do it but I can't deal with it. I want to recover but it just too hard.

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The-red-centaurSenior Contributor19 Dec 2019, 11:25 pm AEDT

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@outlander I'm so scared.

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outlanderSenior Contributor19 Dec 2019, 11:28 pm AEDT

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having an ED is hard @The-red-centaur recovery can also be a frightening prospect esp when this is the life weve known for so long.

are there any programs you could do as an outpatient or a psychologist that could come to the hospital your a currently and help you get started with it?

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The-red-centaurSenior Contributor19 Dec 2019, 11:41 pm AEDT

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@outlander there's no ED treatment in Tassie for 18+ even outpatient. I'm moving to x after hospital since I won't be able to find a house here. There, outpatient treatment looks possible. Inpatient is either Sydney or Melbourne. They will never transfer me anywhere so that's totally out of the question. I guess I have to do this alone and try to recover when I'm finished rehab. For now I'm getting really sick and I'm scared but eating and recovery is too hard.

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Unknown userMember20 Dec 2019, 9:00 am AEDT

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Good morning @The-red-centaur, sounds like a hard night. Just checking in as to how you're travelling today? Any music on the playlist this morning?

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The-red-centaurSenior Contributor20 Dec 2019, 9:59 am AEDT

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@Former-Member today is too hard....

Today's song.... trying to be pos.

https://youtu.be/TlPr0nzCZ58

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The-red-centaurSenior Contributor21 Dec 2019, 7:34 pm AEDT

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I HAD DAY LEAVE TODAY!! I got out of hospital and got my haircut, did some shopping and played Magic with some friends. I'm so tired but I had an amazing day. Also managed a full meal for lunch in town.

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The-red-centaurSenior Contributor22 Dec 2019, 1:02 am AEDT

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Im so stressed about Christmas....I'm going out (yay) but foooooodddd fk. She's cooking so much for me and I wanna cry rn coz I sing know how much is in anything and I'll engorge on dessert. I should have said no.

Why can't I just enjoy myself and not be so obsessed about food. Recovery is too fuckhard.

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The-red-centaurSenior Contributor22 Dec 2019, 11:02 pm AEDT

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https://youtu.be/vN0qJExuIQ0

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The-red-centaurSenior Contributor23 Dec 2019, 1:02 am AEDT

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I'm so sick of not sleeping.

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