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Understanding my psychosis

Understanding my psychosis

I have been youth psychosis program in Headspace For 2 years for a (drug induce psychosis)

have made a full recovery from the psychosis but I have been contemplating seeing the old therapist for just one session to ask the questions

why I didn’t feel any guilt in that phase of my life ?

why do u not feel any guilt now for the things I did back then ?

why did I not feel any sympathy towards anyone during that phase in my life ?

I also want to know why even now when somebody mentions something bad that happened in that period why I don’t really know/ care about it right now ?

It’s almost like what happened wasn’t me (not even trying to deflect or not take responsibility but that’s how I feel.


If I stepped on a dogs toe tonight I would feel super bad, and in 3 weeks if you mentioned that I stepped on the dogs toe I would go back to that moment in my mind and feel bad again.

But if some one mention things 100 times worst from that period I would genuinely not feel anything (yes I would fake emotion to seem normal)
But yeah I wouldn’t really care

do you guys have any answers to these questions ?

and for future references what would I say to the close friends that I lost through my crazy actions/behaviour/lies/manipulation ect.

if they wanted to get answers for how I was.

thanks a lot for taking the time to read this.

cheers

Elliot

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Hi @BryanaCamp

I definitely was a bit of a sociopath during my psychosis.

and yes I totally agree it's not ok to harm others.
and yes I most definitely damaged my reputation through my actions.

no I'm not saying I have no remorse or no moral compass.

but for the things I did during my psychosis I struggle to understand the impact for them because I felt like it wasn't me.

yes apologies it has taken me time to apologetics to people, but there are certain people during my psychosis where I struggle to apolige to.

but yes you are totally right I need to find a way to apologise

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Hey @Teej

@yeah it's a great thing going on on this website, good to be apart of.

Yeah that information is super useful.

yeah I have definitely have some

but yeah it is also really hard to feel empathy towards something you don't understand. So I guess I have to keep that in mind with what my old friends are thinking.

thought in seeing the therapist, and yeah it would be a much more positive experience and I'm sure she would feel happy seeing the changes since I saw her last.

thanks again!

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Re: Understanding my psychosis

Youre welcome @Elliot . Good luck 😊

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Re: Understanding my psychosis

Hi @Elliot @can I ask if you don't mind, you said your psychotic episode was drug induced. How long did the psychosis last for? I ask because my son had an episode late last year when he was smoking dope. His then treating shrink said it was probably drug induced and put him on a course of anti psychotic meds. Unfortunately my son continued to smoke pop so the meds weren't working. Around month 3 he finally stopped smoking and the beds seemed to work. He stopped taking them around 3 weeks ago. He's just started seeing a new shrink who my son has apparently told that his thoughts/delusions have continued. This shrink is now saying the episode last last year wasn't drug related and that he has psychosis. He said in his view drug related psychosis only last a couple of days or at most a couple of weeks but not several months so I'm interested to hear how long your episode was.

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Hi @Elliot did you see my last message? Cheers

Kelly

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Re: Understanding my psychosis

Hi @Kellyil

It makes me very sad hearing what you are going through with your son, and makes me empathise more towards my parents and what I put them through due to my psychosis.

To answer your question

"How long did the psychosis last for?"
My psychosis was on and off for about a solid 1 year and a half,

but through Head space and putting my full Trust and faith into the Psychiatrists hands, the intense symptoms of Psychosis were fading away.

The main issue with psychosis is that it does take time to heal.

on a side note, I would personal recommend headspace because they have lots of expertise in specifically psychosis, and they can be your Rock of consistent treatment.

They also have people with lived experience of Pschosis.

Theres nothing worst then being mucked around with the Mental healthcare system.
Just a side piece of information, 2 percent of people that smoke pot have a bad reaction in the brain.
As crazy as it may seem but
what your son is going through is very normal considering the Usual of Pot. And his vulnerability to the Pot.

any further questions, I promise I'll answer quicker this time.

my thoughts and prayers and going to you and your son.

kind regards

Elliot


I would personally recommend


@Kellyil wrote:

Hi @Elliot @can I ask if you don't mind, you said your psychotic episode was drug induced. I ask because my son had an episode late last year when he was smoking dope. His then treating shrink said it was probably drug induced and put him on a course of anti psychotic meds. Unfortunately my son continued to smoke pop so the meds weren't working. Around month 3 he finally stopped smoking and the beds seemed to work. He stopped taking them around 3 weeks ago. He's just started seeing a new shrink who my son has apparently told that his thoughts/delusions have continued. This shrink is now saying the episode last last year wasn't drug related and that he has psychosis. He said in his view drug related psychosis only last a couple of days or at most a couple of weeks but not several months so I'm interested to hear how long your episode was.


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Hi @Elliot and thanks so much for responding. It's interestng to hear how long your Psychosis went for as my sons new Psychiatrist issaying that this want druf induced and as drug induced spycosis only lasts from a few days to a few weeks so he is leaning towards Schizerphrenia. You situation gives me some hope that he may be wrong. I'm in Brissy can I ask where your from? I will get in touch with Haead space. Do they actually treat people?

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@Kellyil I'm from Adelaide, yes they are a Very professional and Realiable place to go.

there is a program in Headspace called Youth Psychosis Program "HYPP"

This is between the ages of 18-27.

there are other people In the same boat as your son,

When I went, I was hanging out with people also with worst cases of psychosis, it opened my eyes and I didn't feel so alone in the "madness"

I'm not sure what the Headspaces In Brisbane are like, but I'm sure they are just as good.

Headspace is also a completely free program with acess to everything you need.but you need to be refered from your GP.

I would love to keep in touch with you, and see how you and your son progress


@Kellyil wrote:

Hi @Elliot and thanks so much for responding. It's interestng to hear how long your Psychosis went for as my sons new Psychiatrist issaying that this want druf induced and as drug induced spycosis only lasts from a few days to a few weeks so he is leaning towards Schizerphrenia. You situation gives me some hope that he may be wrong. I'm in Brissy can I ask where your from? I will get in touch with Haead space. Do they actually treat people?


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Re: Understanding my psychosis

Hi @Elliot Oh wow Im an Adelaide girl! Go the Crows!! Thankyou for all your support. I am just jopinhg against hope that this is not a permanent thing which leads to Schzephrenia as I've been leade to beleive but more a drug induced episode which has all of the added issues of teenage stuff along with the hurt and anger my son has over his father abandoning him and tellig him at aged 10 that he was ashamed to call him his son. He needs help dealing and coming to terms with this and I belive then he may be able to heal. Thankyou I would love for you to stay in touch.

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@Kellyil I really don't understand much about Schzephrenia, so I can't help you with that.

I'm really sorry for what your son went through as a boy, but I'm sure once your sons brain is fully protected from psychosis, it will be easier to have therapy for his child hood,

but what can I say, I'm only a boy my self, so I don't really know the answers.

All the best for the future.

GO the crows!!!!

@Kellyil wrote:

Hi @Elliot Oh wow Im an Adelaide girl! Go the Crows!! Thankyou for all your support. I am just jopinhg against hope that this is not a permanent thing which leads to Schzephrenia as I've been leade to beleive but more a drug induced episode which has all of the added issues of teenage stuff along with the hurt and anger my son has over his father abandoning him and tellig him at aged 10 that he was ashamed to call him his son. He needs help dealing and coming to terms with this and I belive then he may be able to heal. Thankyou I would love for you to stay in touch.

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