trigger warning violent thoughts

Hey everyone firstly I must say a huge thank you to Sane forums for being able to address issues like this as it is not something that you can just talk to anyone about not even your doctors sometimes...... I was wondering do people here have violent thoughts? I do at times. They play out in my head and some of them are quite shocking to me that I would find them soothing when I am thinking of them. Does anyone else have violent thoughts which they find calming? I have never had thoughts like this before my mi so I think it is a mi thing for me. I have spoken to my pdoc about some of these thoughts but not all of them and will stay on my meds etc but was just wondering is it normal to have these thoughts? or is it a mi thing. pea