Sleeping too much

Thanks @Faith-and-Hope, Thanks Faith-and-Hope, how was your day, sounds like you get bit lonely even with your family, pitty u couldn't see/here more from your friend there - but glad you talked.
"Friends are the flowers
in the garden of life"

I just got home, turned the phone on to find umpteen msgs from bro2 wanting to know whats wrong with dad, and why mums crying and wont talk to him, hes threatening to call police on mum & dad, blabla, so unnecessary. Double checked my info with nurse (dad has Bladder Cather, partial kidney failure + on IV ABs), talked with dad who seems good in spirits, but said Bro4 took his phone to use as his is out of credit grr). Tx back bro with most that suggesting he visit dad in hospital. Rang ma who's "too tired to talk" but she did make a point of telling me Bro1 visited her today, all the way from The Snowy Mountains, but didn't have time to visit dad in hospital 10min away grr, And said she gave away the 2nd hand wheelchair I bought dad and just took down to them - as DVA have come to the party and gave dad one, a 'better' one, brand new, hmm! Not that I need a wheelchair I guess. I don't understand any of them anymore, accept dad, dont have much patience for the carry on. Glad dad's in hospital away from it, even though he did say Bro4 "took EVERYTHING" Think my parents are scared of my verbally abusive Bro3+4

My Dr rang re sleep study results she wants apt to discuss/(probably not serious). Gynae want their F/up apt & my mammogram today was 'all clear'

Visited my christian widow nursing friend for A/T, she's a character, loves blueberry muffins I always take. Turns out she's pretty lonely after having family staying here place from PNG for a month - all quiet again. Ya know, still not sure she really wants me round so tread carefully.

My dog is cuddling atm, always gotta be touching, irritates me a bit, I'm not a very touchy feely person, especially in the heat. But its also very sweet. Feel sorry for him since his lifetime mate passed away 18/12 ago. Probably good for me really, to care.

Boss rang me to do a shift fill in today, that felt good, thought shed quit me.

Something strange tonight, I hear music that's not there, old time music singing, but is not there, this is weird, maybe the fan messing with my ears. Help @Appleblossom, you round? think I've crossed over into psychosis? lol na, how are you? Betta go xox

In company here @Former-Member .... can't chat much, but listening and interested .....

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Today was hard with disturbing calls & text msgs from Sydney family. Mum was just put on her 3rd course of ABs & now prednisone for her RTI, it worries me she's home alone. Dads in hospital with bad UTI, IV AB's, catheter, can't walk again, misses mum. Bro4 driving them round (mum pays fuel), but even worse than that is Bro2 tx msgs threatening to have them forced into care & the house sold, within the month. Hmm! So intermeshed MI I really think there might be some violence. Tried to ease mums worry saying he's bluffing and Authorities will helpntou even die in your own home if that's what you want (within reason). Anyway, I've been consumed by the madness all day. Only managed to get the bins out, water the gardens and snack on nuts & rice crackers & caffeine, and resist unpleasent escallation of SI, so exhausting! But its just them I think, not me, I think.

Also hard posted in coffee etc. went to work was ok til early afternoon then near fainted got cut off dole cos they apparently threw my last sick cert in bin lol have a gazzilion things to do tomorrow have chance of a months work ie 12hrs 7 days a week 4 weeks, 1 day off. So need the money but guess who talked self into a painkiller yest afternoon so will try to ring and explain and poss get test put off til Monday ok after I do everything else they asked like supply copies of docs already sent to agency will be paying me etc .. apart from that... fine ... 😀

something weird happened to me while at mum and dad's - a few times I went to talk to mum and she was suddenly not there, I'd go to look for her but upon a second glance she was there all along. I prayed about the meaning of it - I understand it to mean mum's time is very short and the Lord is preparing my heart for her empty space in this life, God knows this will be particularly hard for me on my own. Does that make sense anybody?