Sleeping too much

Thanks @TAB. I've been looking at all my friends who have turned 50 this year on Facebook and it brings home how much my life is messed up now. I don't usually react this way to stuff on Facebook either but I guess this whole birthday is another of my nemesis. Mine to suck in I guess. Thanks for the support though. 💜😊

..it's all how you see it, and could say the same, as in this sorta made some sort of sense even at 40 re my life, then weight of expectation as get older .. it can be just acceptance, appreciating what is there, not what might have been, maybe, if, once ..so why am so o looking forward to seeing sis etc at xmas she's retiring, set, up for life, 2 years younger, Im going to be working til I die, it is what it is .. and of course I struggle with it, just can't let it get to you tho @Former-Member

yeah it's a hard one @TAB. I hope if you go it's ok and they are all grateful you made the journey for them. Hopefully you can enjoy each other's company while your parents are still alive 💜🤗

Good thought @Former-Member but I suspect they will find a reason to be there before I get there like last year, so avoid each other, none of her family talk to me anyway, it is what it is, just not up to their standards, read, ..and they feel threatened by people who are not in a similar financial situation to them, tis what it is ..anyway not trying to sound neg, just have to learn to appreciate the 'little things' ..

Well, that was awkward. Just took my girl somewhere and saw quite a few people from the past, who I try to avoid. People who really let me down when I was at my worst.

Before that I had an upsetting phone call. Gosh! Feel like crying, but can't.

Now arguing with hubby. Grrr!

I need to be distracted.

Not sure who is on here still. I noticed @Former-Member and @TAB

What's up? Anyone have a joke?????? I do. Life is a joke.

Age, hmm! I see that was the discussion. I don't feel my age. I am older than I would like to be.

I understand what you mean @Former-Member I'm getting older and feel like I've wasted alot of life. I try not to think about it as it is quite upsetting. You seem to have achieved alot though. Bringing up 4 boys and I am impressed that you are now studying.

you funnybunny @Former-Member ..yes, yuk re situ, but 'stuff happens' and as someone else said on here, people are in the past ..for a reason ...come and have a chat in BG or sort stuff w hubby first .. kleenex here ..not my thing .. ok it's coles paper towel haha ..works even better ..lol

Hi @Former-Member

I feel so privileged after my third marriage my step daughters have baby girls 20 mths and 16 mths. It is such a great time going through the growing up stage again without so much of the responsibility. They do give me that at times!!

Stay well.

I'd love to move away from here @TAB Hard to get hubby to move though. I've been living here for many years and have so many people I'd rather not bump into, hard not to though. Yes, the past is the past, wish I didn't have to see them though. No, thanks re: paper towel, lol. Can't cry anyway. No, I don't want to make up with hubby, I'm so annoyed, he let me down again.

I was in Beer Garden, lol. I'll go back there then, after I find something to eat for dinner.

Hi @Arjay I don't think we've met before. Nice to meet you.

Oh. that would be lovely having babies to play with again. I really look forward to being a nanna. Bit of a wait for me though. I only have one girl and would have loved another one.