Self Harm

@Appleblossom @outlander @Faith-and-Hope @Bunniekins @MDT @Molliex @TAB @Zoe7 @Adge @Shaz51 @eth @BlueBay @Former-Member

Hey all. I've been surviving, a bit distant lately and for that I apologise.

I saw my psychiatrist today and I told him about all the difficulties I have been having especially the self harm/suicidal intrusive thoughts. He changed my antidepressant to one more suited to old style intrusive thoughts. He didn't admit me which I thought he would. I feel good on the one hand that I can continue with the med change at home but there's a part of me that feels I can't go on any longer, mostly with work, I really get overwhelmed with work, my psychiatrist opinion was for me to just quit but it's more complex than that.

Feeling exhausted and stressed about all the stuff in my head, life shouldn't be like this.

sorry to hear things are hardf for your atm @Angels333 i've got the luxury of not having to work atm , after GP visit sat have decided to give up drink. DR very supportive, ring me at home to check up etc day 5 today EDIT it was like none of it ever happened today . So am busted .

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@TAB well done for you. Mr Angels and I have cut down the alcohol lately too. Things got a bit out of control with covid lockdown and that set a precedent for increased drinking. Day 5 is awesome, gp sounds great, I really hope it works out for you.

Seding you my support over the internet xxx

thanks @Angels333 have decided am doing it , not putting self in work situations etc for the time being, anyway meds were ordinary for first couple days but today was good. lost of naps and treated self to pie and hot chips with gravy lol but treats will have to go sooner or later but figure no alc leaves room for treats

Definitely have the treats @TAB and maybe put some grog cash aside to buy yourself something nice. I gotta go to bed now Mr Angels has a hospital appointment early. It a regular infusion for his autoimmune disease. I always go with him and we get lunch after. Thanks for talking to me tonight I was feeling so lonely x g'night

@Angels333 um could get a complete new wardrobe thanks to you too sleep well

Hi @Angels333 sending you big hugs my friend 💜

@TAB @Appleblossom @outlander @Faith-and-Hope @Zoe7 @eth @Bunniekins @Adge @MDT @Shaz51 @Former-Member @BlueBay @and my dearest friend@Molliex thanks for the hugs xx

I'm struggling through this med change. Currently tapering up. Intrusive thoughts are constant. Getting to work is difficult but I'm pretending I'm okay and turning up so as to not look unreliable.

Feeling quasi suicidal... but I know It's just an emotion if that makes sense... I think I'm just really tired and need a break.

Changing meds is one of the hardest things to do. Be kind to yourself @Angels333 💜 💜 Take a couple days if you need it. You've got this!