Dark place

I get that @Former-Member ..... it can be really hard to start when thoughts are all over the place. I can't read novel I have bought at the moment for the same reason - too unsettled.

I would encourage you to start an art journal though ..... cut out words from magazines or junk mail to say something about what you are feeling, and glue in a few images (flowers, a candle, beach scene, rock stack - create a rock stack from different rocks found in magazines) and just layer it up.

Choose a different pen, like a white gel pen, and write into the images ..... maybe words that you want to find irl like peace, understanding, empathy, independence, etc.

it is a powerful way to find a voice when you feel you don't have one at the moment.

Hi @Faith-and-Hope ill go and hide in my little hollow for a while, so I might stay offline. I like the idea of the magazines, but not ready for that. Take care my friend.

💐💕 @Former-Member .....

Hi All, how are your weekends going? I feel numb, but I'm not suicidal today. I find it hard to ride the waves. I was out with friends yesterday and it was a beautiful day for everyone, but I couldn't connect. I tried so hard, but I couldn't feel anything and just wanted to stop my life. I think there are no reasons to live if I cannot feel and I don't know what else I can do to change. I feel more positive sometimes but I can't deal with the numbness and being so detached that nothing makes sense. Whatever I try to work out to make sense out of my life just doesn't make sense when I don't feel well and things I've tried to look forward to or do just lose meaning and then I don't know. I've been trying to work out reasons to live for so long now, I'm just tired to start all over again. I don't see the sense

@Former-Member I’m hearing you, and it all sounds really hard. I don’t have any answers, but I do understand what you are saying. I’ve felt it often.

I can offer you some company on the journey, some care, some support. I can tell you , you are enough, just as you are. And I’m dropping off some 💕💕💕💕

Hi @Maggie @Faith-and-Hope & All

thank you for sitting with me. I think about suicide every day now and it's getting stronger, I don't know if I want to talk to my support. If I did I don't want to burden them, there's too much going on with corona and there are so many that need help. I think they've done as much as they can.

Hi @Former-Member

I am very sorry to hear that your suicide thought are getting stronger. That sounds like a very dark place for you. We urge you reaching out to your supports and I am sure they will gladly help you. You would never be a burden just a worthy and valuable person needing a hand.

Tonight please consider ringing these 24/7 help lines:

Lifeline 13 11 14

Suicide Call Back 1300 659 467

I hope you can keep safe Aeiou,

Whitehawk

@Former-Member you matter as much as anyone else does ..... please reach out to your support.

Continuing to sit with you ..... the coronavirus will pass.

🐠

Thanks @Former-Member

with everything happening around Victoria, Australia & the world and me being in a safe area with a lot of positives (that I can't feel) happening for me, I honestly just feel stupid & needy. And I don't know what will change. I had so many admissions and go back to square one and start again and I do things & don't feel and I don't see what else I can do & I don't want to anymore I think, Sorry, but I will stay safe tonight. People have asked me before what I think will happen when I die and I realised today that my nothing will merge with the big nothingness and that is ok.

Hi again @Former-Member

Thanks for lettting me know that you will be safe tonight. I appreciate that. Feeling stupid and needy are very understandable for many of us these days and do not make us any less precious or worthy. Let's hope that tomorrow brings some sunshine and hope.

May you get some solace and rest tonight,

Whitehawk