Dark place

Hey @Former-Member

It is hard not get swamped by these negative times. So sad you are close to people suffering with COvid. I am in an area with a lot of cases for Australia, but nobody I know has it. Its a learning curve, and gradually the reality is settling in for most of us.

Sorry I may have missed some of your tags. I have had a lot on familywise lately. At the moment early dinner has been served, eaten, and my son is playing beautiful music.

Hugs

Apple

I don't understand how my mind works and just gets stuck into the same thoughts. I guess I expected more out of my life than surviving.

@Former-Member I haven’t been online for a few days and missed you post. I’m sorry things are feeling dark again. I don’t have any answers, I’m sitting with you, hoping.

Did you find any beauty and love.? Sending some kind thoughts your way this morning. 💕💕🌼🌼🍄

Hi All, thank you for your kind thoughts. I hope you can all find a way to cope. I just don't know what to think. I'm away from home to get away from the isolation and stress at home, getting away from the news etc. but I'm scared of being away and find it hard because I'm not home. I wasn't well at home and needed to get away, now I'm away and need to be home. I’m afraid of life. I'm afraid to be home, I'm afraid to be away, I'm afraid with my partner, I'm afraid without my partner... I know what I’d be told if I talk to my care team. It just doesn’t make sense. I end up not understand again and again. I’m not scared to die, just to mess it up. I’m tired. On top of everything I feel it really hard, that around me people are trans and homophobic and don’t know how I feel. People think they know the best for me and just scare me. People don’t want to understand and can’t understand. I'll keep talking to you guys, I don't want to talk to anyone else, I feel like a loser anyway without anyone telling me that I've got everything in life, and shouldn't I have gotten over my suicidal thoughts, ptsd whatever yet...

@Former-Member I really am hearing you. Yes, keep talking here. I get that it’s scary either way.

I don’t know if just looking at the pics coming through on another thread would help or not. It’s a virtual trip around Australia Join us on our virtual walk around Australia! i’ll Leave the info, you can just look or join in. Sometimes company helps for a little while.

Sending 💙💙💙

@Former-Member Another new thread you might enjoy. The safe room- somewhere to just come and sit.... offload... feel supported . 💙💙💙

Thanks Maggie, I like that 🙂

@Former-Member 💕💕💕

Hi all

I'm angry. Or disappointed. Or hurt. Or ... I don't know. I have interventions going on behind my back, professionals talking to each other or to my carer without telling me at the time. I don't care if they have my best interest at heart or however else you could call it, want to keep me safe... they're breaking my trust and I've never trusted easily. I spent years learning to trust them and now I don't know what to do. I don't know why I let anyone into my life. I don't want anyone in my life.

Sounds awful @Former-Member .....

Not sure what to say, other than that I hear you.

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