LemonjuiceSenior Contributor
Suicide prevention program
Hi, I haven't been on for a while, hope everyone is well.
My new counsellor has talked to her supervisors and they are insisting that I go for a psych assessment by a psychiatrist and join a program that provides an intensive suicide prevention course or something like that. I am seeing one of their intake people on Monday. This feels really weird to me, my attempts and feelings have always been secret. I just tough it out and I have been doing that for about 40 years. I am high funtioning, bubbly, friendly, most of the time and always caring for others. The idea that someone is paying attention or caring for me, seeing me, like I exist, feels so alien and rather uncomfortable. I'm a bit scared and frustrated, cause there's a part of me that wants to die and this is going the wrong direction. This is going to be a waste of time, I have so much on, right now. Just not going to think about it, go and be my happy self, limit the damage and get out of the situation. So stupid, I let myself talk about how bad I get when I was feeling weak and now I am stuck with a two month program.🤦♀️:face_with_rolling_eyes:
