EMDR - Has anyone done this

@outlander

Ill look into doing the aqua course as i wont have lollipop duty for 6wks over xmas so ill have more time & shouldnt srress out too much.

Im finding out if i qualify for the ed supplement. Itll give me some extra income whilst i do it.

Cant teach from home as live in a sm town hse.

Think what im doing is the best plan for now.

Just struggling emotionally today. Feeling very teary.

Love lollipop ladies @Former-Member

A friendly smile from them has kept me going in my worst times.

It takes a lot of energy to face up to a class of adults. Go you.

Sometimes the idea of an inner castle or wearing some armour ... to deflect all the upsetting things without taking it all personally can help. I work on keeping my inner cave ... and protection .... I dont like castle snobbiness but prefer the cosiness and naturalness of cave imagery.

Last night as a lady started going on about sports trophies ... I just had to leave the conversation ... (I tried to do it nicely) been a polite onlooker too often ... just could not do the yes yes ... and know that they could not understand me ... so the best bet seems mixing on a superficial level ... being polite ... but not expecting friendship ... another lady was definitely friendly ... but ... I cannot share what has been going on for me in the last month ...

@Appleblossom

Yeah i do like doing the lollipop job & must say im very good at it.

Yeah i agree the superficial conversation is often all i can do.

Once it starts to upset me ive gotta get away

@outlander @Appleblossom @MDT

Will just have to take this study slowly as i get so damn stressed with studying but better to do it now before i get too much work hey.

Have to do my CPR next week.

Ill get that out of the way & introduce myself to some of the aqua instructors to feel which ones i resonate with & dont stress me out to work alongside

@MDT

Been a stressful day however i got a lot sorted out.

Jusr hoping this med helps me get thru this course.

Last med wasnt strong enough & i stressed out a lot doing my last course.

Theres a job waiting for me at this gym tho & itll help promote my other class so itll b worth it.

Ill go to the pool fri to meet the trainer to hopefully work alongside

If i dont click with her then theres 2 others there

Glad im teaching tonight as i need the exercise to help destress me.

I get so worked up with paperwork & studies hey

Work can be a great distraction.

@Former-Member

@Appleblossom

Yeah once i get over the initial setting doing this course & link up with some trainers to help me im sure ill chillout a bit more with it.

Possibly cause i struggled doing last course on a lower dose meds ive got that bad memory

Thats probably why its stressing me out