Attachment weirdness, neediness, shame

@TheVorticon I went for my first appointment on Saturday....there was all day parking in the side street across the road so that was good.....

location good not too far from home ....

the psych asked me about my history so I went through work history and how anxiety affected me....I hope I will get better ...I have another appointment in 2 weeks and I am covered by Medicare mental health plan which is good

I had a really annoying customer the other day....

I wish she didn't go through me ...

She can't let go of the past and it was very very annoying the way she spoke to me

and the manager and someone else was at the counter being irritating and talking to her....I am not sure why they want to talk to her but I couldn't do anything about it

If a mistake was made in the past why can't she let it go?

I think she knows how she 'comes across'. It happened again today-

this time there was no interference from other people ...

She asked me if I knew how to do it and

I put it through for her - she may have noticed that I was irritated with her as I told her

I knew how to do it - not sure how irritated I looked but I felt that way ...

then she said she would be back in a few minutes with another one - you can imagine how pleased I was to hear that - anyway the manager did the 2nd

one when she got back

If she doesn't realise how she 'comes across' that is very disturbing for someone

of her age - probably mid 40s or something like that and been a customer

for many years - not to realise that what you say and how you say it has an impact

on others it doesn't take much intelligence

But what can I do? that's retail

@jamesle2015 I guess I wasn't meaning lacking intelligence, but lacking awareness due to other things going on in her mind. It certainly doesn't stop the behaviour from being annoying though. Are there other repeat customers that you get along better with?

Yes I get along well with 'repeat' customers who act 'normally'.

I like customers that aren't condescending.

@CheerBear I thought I might put this in here and take the risk of tagging you (I need an apprehensive smiley but this will have to do).

A few months ago, my psych said something that really hurt my feelings. We've discussed it a few times since then, and apparently he didn't mean to say it the way he did. What he meant to say is ok and I understand it. But I also believe that he really thinks the thing he accidentally said. When we've discussed it he has said otherwise, but I already believed the thing he accidentally said so of course I believe that over his backtracking.

While I understand why he would think the thing, I don't know how to stop feeling hurt by it being essentially confirmed. It was hard enough convincing myself beforehand that it was "possibly a distorted thought" whereas now - he literally said it.

It shouldn't matter if he thinks the thing, but it does matter to me for some reason and I don't know how to stop it from mattering.

(Not sure if robot-frustrated works here either but it's as good as any)