Went to doc, have come off the med that was causing the trouble in a rapid way, and onto my old anti-d. My doc increased my anti-psychotic med by twice the dose. She had never seen me in high anxiety and hypomanic until Monday - that was an eye opener for her, she had only ever seen me depressed.
Tinnitus volume has increased, now also waterfall-lights in peripheral vision & photophobic (light sensitive). May be classic migraine symptom - without the headache, I never knew you could have migraine without headache until now. All bought on by stress probably.
Completed the Aged Care assessment at my Mum's yesterday woke up this AM with total laryngitis. My partner has stayed home so she can take any calles that come in from aged care services about my Mum, what a time to lose my voice.
I wonder if it is psychological because I feel like I sold my poor occsionally confused, definately memory loss (now more demented) dignified, lovely Mum down the river yesterday so she will get the assistance she needs. Being demented (and rapidly failing) is the pits. Poor Mum.
I have an appointment later today with a Psychologist supplied by CArers org. I am having to deal with the person who abused me on a daily basis (because we are related) about Mum. It is doing my head in, I am triggered everytime we speak. <sigh>
Anyways - my very good friend who flew from intersate to help me traverse the Aged Care system and help with the ACAT assessment flew home yesterday - she was an absolute and wonderful support to me. (She is an ex-Aged Care DON so knew her stuff).
I have two days off ffrom having to vivist Mum as she has friends looking out for her for two days. It may take up to 4 weeks to get the ACAT assessment results but we MAY be able to get her into Respite care (for both our sakes!) by next week after initital assesment (temporary result) is known.
This end of life is certainly such a difficult time when dementia comes into the picture., Poor Mum. <weep>
