I feel sad and pathetic

@MDT Hi Hamsolo01 sorry you are feeling so shite atm :(. Mi si a total b1tch what can I say. I am here on and off if you want to talk or just listen if you would prefer. greenpea xx

hi @MDT you're having a rough time you poor old sausage.

I've been struggling too with the basics of showering, dressing and brushing my teeth. It's hard.

Have you been to hospital before? I've never been so can't comment but is this something you think would be helpful atm?

@MDT Going to the gym is a great idea. Getting out and doing something physical is a good way to help get rid of the blues :). Unfortunately (take this from an old chook who has seen alot in her lifetime) being spat in the face as you put it so well is part of life but there are ups as well I think to balance out the bad.

I did a half marathon was running everyday for a year and a bit to train up plus weights and stuff and yes it nearly did me doing it but felt so good at the end. I couldn't do a whole marathon that really would do me some damage I am just not built for running even though I love it :).

There are lots of marathons I did the Canberra Marathon and it was lovely.

Hi Hamsolo,

Sherpa09 here, (one of the moderators on the SANE forum). Sorry to hear you are struggling at the moment. It can be difficult when everything seems to be going against you, where you can feel a strong sense of isolation. If you're in need of further support I suggest contacting lifeline on 13 11 14 or beyond blue 1300 22 4636, where they'd be further be able to further unpack what might be going on for you at the moment. Otherwise please let us know how we can best support you through this difficult time. I have also sent a private email regarding this post.

Sherpa09.

good onya @MDT gym is great. you know yourself well & you trust your pdoc so avoiding hospital seems a good idea. i've managed to bite the bullet and consolidate my super this morning - a bureaucratic nightmare I've been avoiding as my supers are all so small the govt will simply take them off me (all my hard-earned $ from 10-20 years ago) if I don't consolidate. It reflects my ability to only stick with jobs short term with my MI! so I have all these different supers.

I've been unemployed for 7 years Hamsolo due to MI and this year I've put my everything into trying to get a job but have been unsuccessful so I definitely understand how you feel. The rejections are brutal. It's emotionally exhausting putting yourself out there into the sometimes harsh recruitment world and performing in interviews and perfecting & finessing job applications. You're not alone.

I think you're well ahead of me in having been so recently employed and having positive references from that. Whereas I have a gaping 7 year gap of unemployment.

I have been volunteering for about 12 months. Although it's gone a tad pear-shaped with this mean man I volunteer with, on the whole it's been very positive and the staff are so lovely and supportive, they are cheering me on in my employment search which makes a big difference to my confidence. It also gives my week some structure - on wednesdays I have to get up and dressed and go there & perform my duties and behave professionally all day. So that may be something you want to try.

I was also wondering of you'd like to go to a support group once a week. Again it provides structure to the week, gives you somewhere you've gotta be one day a week.

enjoy your coffee, you deserve it

hi @Bunniekins good to see you as always