Nothing helps

I am having so much overwhemling anxiety & agoraphobia about my daughter starting her new school this Tuesday-

i don't know how I'm going to be able to do it- I don't know how I am physically going to be able to take her to her new class & deal with all the new people kids teachers & parents- I don't know how I am going to be able to support her & help her through her nerves & discomfort when I am feeling so so sick & not well in my own head & body.

This is one of the reasons I didn't want to change schools because my agoraphobia & anxiety are so bad & I am not coping- but it had to be done.

I feel like I'm falling apart & I don't have anyone to help if I crumble in a heap.

I am very reluctant to tell the new school about my MH issues- because the last school I told & it was not respected & used against me,when she was having difficulties that they ignored-in the end I was blamed-I am feeling really traumatised by the whole thing & I know my daughter is also-& I am not strong enough to help her-

i hate myself- I hate everything about myself - I can't stop crying-

i need to get myself together to be together enough to help her- but literally every cell in my is body is screaming on in pain & I am struggling - I don't want to feel like this- I need to help my daughter