I'm leaving the forum

I'm hoping to visit NTH QLD again soon. I loved living in Townsville. I still have friends in Townsville. good night to you too, my sister. Thanks for all your support ❤️

Hi again @oceangirl

Thankyou for your nice reply. I don't know if you realise it, but when you talk with me as you have, it helps me too. We all need connections; close, not so close and aquaintances we only meet once. They're all important in their own way.

As for feeling unsafe; I think the hardest part of posting is having the freedom and anonymity to be who we really are. That's scary when you think about it. When you come from a life of trauma, pain, confusion and living on the edge of your seat, being among loving individuals can be a bit daunting at first. It was for me.

And...if you didn't express yourself properly, how would I have picked up on anything at all? You're doing a great job considering what you've come through. You're engaging, intelligent and warm. What more could you ask of yourself?

We are our harshest critics, there's no doubt. Being on Sane though gives us a chance to see ourselves through the eyes of members' kindness and generousity. For instance, I mostly end my posts with 'kind or warm thoughts' and an xo. Some people find this odd or even hard to take, but it's who I am. It's a loving gesture I think we all deserve and makes me feel good.

So keep plodding along one sentence at a time hun. :ok_hand:

I promise I won't write this much next time because I realise it takes a lot of brain power to get through long posts.

You take care lovely;

Hope xo 👵

Dear @oceangirl

I resonated with you first about the waves and the oceans, I had a coastal profile pic at the time.

Then about the wildlife sanctuary. I get that we are from different generations and even different social classes. Neither of us have let the differences overwhelm our common values. That means a lot to me, as I have endured too much rejection for superficial reasons.

I have felt inner conflict about my time on the forums. You often give yourself time out and that is good. I need to give myself permission for that too.

I do feel happy seeing your pic come up. It reminds me of you, your love for your dogs and the care of the planet. Multi faceted. It is important to me for people struggling with mental health issues are celebrted for all their wonderful qualities too.

Hugs Apple

Hi @Hope4me

Its lovely to hear from you. I am glad that I have been able to help you a little, and I hope by interacting together, that I am able to make you feel good about yourself. I am caring, and I have always put others first and worried more about their feelings before my own.

You have made some interesting points about feeling unsafe here. I think, my feelings are valid. I'm not sure if I am duanted by caring & loving individuals, I actually never really thought about it. But maybe I have, I probably thought I was not good enough or thought that people didn't like me. I am probably not alone in feeling that way.

As I read through your message, I started to feel at ease, because I often have self doubt especially about expressing myself. I never realized I had good qualities and that I was engaging, intelligent and warm. Thank you so much for making me feel good about myself :).

I do know we are often hard on ourselves, one of speciaist has picked up that I am more kinder to myself. I think the change can after my depression, I don't know why, but I think I've had to do this, so that I am able to recovery from this and to heal. I do know that as a child growing up, I learnt early on, to be my own best friend, and I think I have carried this with me, the whole way through my life. In that way, I think I have been lucky.

Btw, I had no problem reading your post, in actual fact, it was easy for me to read. It made a lot of sense to me. I have made another post checking in- we could talk more over there. Its a place I would like people or other members to come so that they have safe place to talk and if they feel the need to check in they can in that space.

How was your day? I actually put myself out there today and meet a group of girls for lunch and it was lovely. And we had a lovely meal together there was 13 of us today. We are planning events to go together- beach walks, movies, coffee, night markets etc. I think this will be really good for me. I also booking an overseas holiday with a friend I have know her for almost 25 years and she is like a second mum to me. At the end of the year she is retiring- she is a wonderful lady and is well respected in our local community- she received an order of Australian award for her services.

I think I have written too many sentences lol. Thank you for reading my post.

Take care from

OG

Dear @Appleblossom

I am so happy that we have meet and have connected.

I know we are similar in many ways and I would like to think I am not superficial. I am more interested in the person and their character and qualities as opposed to their degreees and status. That does not mean much to me, what means a lot to me, is peoples kindness. I hope this is making sense apple.

I am not sure if I made a conscious decision about having time out from the forum, I think its been a combination of things- recovering from surgery and the first week I was too sick to even come online. I did send a few messages from my mobile and took a few phone calls every day but that was about it and I had vistors at the hospital. And the other times I had probably being trying to get in more of routine and to have less screen time.

I am glad that you're happy when you see my picture, my first love will always be the ocean or maybe it was aniamls too. My first dog, I was just a little girl before I started school- I might have been about 3 when I got him. We had quite a unique bond. I worked out at that age, to walk my dog, but I never left the backyard. I just put him on the lead. and walk him around the yard. because I knew it was not safe for me to be on the streets. I still can't believe I did that- noone showed me I just did it. Thats a little bit more about me.

You have wonderful qualities too- you're kind and thoughtful and engaging. Hugs to you too Apple

Hopefully we can talk some more on the other thread. I hope I have added the link ok @Appleblossom @Hope4me @Shaz51 @outlander @BlueBay

https://saneforums.org/t5/Something-s-not-right/Checking-In/m-p/677960/highlight/true#M164209