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katoSenior Contributor13 Sept 2014, 9:42 am AEST

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Hi, just joined like 5mins ago. I suffer from possibly bi polar I had what they called a psychotic break from reality about 6 years ago trialled on a heap of diff combos of meds. Felt okayish about 2 year's ago and decided to wean off my meds without letting anyone know until I was off them. My wife was understanding of my reasoning and all was ok sorta maybe. I realised 3 days ago how wrong I was andi am trying to find a psychiatrist near me that I can see to get assessed again andwork out if I have bi polar or something else and get help for it. I can't find anything online my gp made it out that they are easy to find except I dont want to go into a hospital. Any thoughts or ideas from anyone would maybe help. Currently experiencing mania but control the silly urges I last about a week like this then depression for a few weeks altho I think I actually spike up and down alot more then I realized sorry rambling please your help is appreciated

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CherryBombSenior Contributor15 Sept 2014, 7:10 pm AEST

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Heya @kato ,

I've not seen you on here before - I haven't been on since Wednesday.

I just wanted to say welcome! It's nice to see you on here.

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katoSenior Contributor15 Sept 2014, 9:42 pm AEST

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Cheers cherry bomb, I am glad to be here also
I am amazed at the amazing people on here and there stories the strength of eaxh indervidual is reassuring. Well I now have a referral to see a psychiatrist at a hospital and I just got home from letting my parents know that I had fallen down again. They are nice and supportive I got so anxious beforw going to tell them not sure why but they took it well they are concerned but happy that I have a grip on things this time round thanks everyone for your insights time for this little black dog to go make wife feel special it is our wedding anniversary today lol such a great way to spend the day lol I joke alot to deal with things

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CherryBombSenior Contributor15 Sept 2014, 9:56 pm AEST

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Haha! I want to write more, but I don't want to keep you on here so you can go wifey some time!

For now, I just wanna say, it's great to hear that you opened up to your folks. It takes courage to do it. I dunno why (I do it too), but I seem to think of worse case scenarios when things are tough and I need help - Like people will think it's my fault. But in the end I usually find that friends and family are supportive.

Anyhoo, happy anniversary!

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Alessandra1992Senior Contributor15 Sept 2014, 10:01 pm AEST

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I am so glad that your family is supportive of you and your wife..it is an anxious time when we share with our family.
When I referred to expert being on tap, not on top, its about the idea of a working relationship with any supports you choose. That is, an open mind to listen to you, and for you to listen to other's ideas. It has been my experience that I really wanted a solution, a quick fix to help me regain control, but I learned that I need to be questioning and thinking about my mind. I did go to a peer support group that really helped me understand that collective wisdom and lived experience was vital for me to be able to cooperate with help. Especially when I sometimes didn't agree with my psych's suggestions..

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katoSenior Contributor16 Sept 2014, 6:48 pm AEST

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@CherryBomb

Thanks but please feel free to write what you wanted I am interested to know now what it was lol

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MaudeSenior Contributor17 Sept 2014, 10:25 am AEST

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I totally understand you not wanting to go through the hospital system. I feel the same.

Beyond Blue is NO HELP in relation to psychiatrists.

Where are you located?

Many places offer one-off assessments via Medicare. For example, the Black Dog Institute in Sydney do comprehensive assessments with a referral from a GP. The Institute specialises in mood disorders such as depression & BP so if you are in NSW, might be an option for you.

I've been trying for a very long time to see a psychiatrist. Thus far I haven't had any luck and find GPs no help either. My local GP refer to the local ritzy, private, fresh flowers in reception, highly expensive private private practice and even then only differentes in terms of gender or how "nice" a psychiatrist is rather than their skills and interests!

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katoSenior Contributor17 Sept 2014, 7:00 pm AEST

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Oh my god @Maude I thought it was just me I am in melbourne and I discovered the same with beyond blue they are fantastic for depression and anxiety but more in depth stuff? Not so helpful

I hit no wheres ville this arvo I had just gotten my 4th sorry but you neef to get the referral sent through so then dr so and so can look at it and decide if they will see you...... and even if they do the wait will be 6+ weeks.

Wow thanks receptionist way to make me feel great lol.

I jumped in my car to go pick up a friend and thought well "hhelp is just a phone call away" I tried lifeline they are really nice ->me - verging on mild mania while driving. Him - so nice and helpful, impressed by my progress lol

EXCEPT - It seems I am too aware of myself to be classed as a threat to me or others for him to come up with much more lol Cheers buddy.

I ring my g.p she offers not much more help except to push that she "can" look into it for me "but" I will have to see whoever it might be. Thats not cool for me so I know I went plunging for depression but maintained composer and said thanks ill think about it

Thats a sure sign I'm giving up.... my wife bless her. Takes it on board, waits till I am distracted and calls to book a double appt so I can get a health plan done - not sure why the dr didn't make me do one earlier lol and my wife has helped me to get myself set to start this whole process off by just starting with someone to get the ball rolling.

She is a gem that one.

Maude *huge hug* I hope you can find something that might help in this

Maybe you can see if another g.p can help with more insight? Sending my hopes and luck your way to help you find something soon.

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Alessandra1992Senior Contributor17 Sept 2014, 9:44 pm AEST

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Hope you were using hands free setting on yr phone kato..and your wife is a gem! Let us know how you go..

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kristinSenior Contributor19 Sept 2014, 6:54 am AEST

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Hi Kato,

Welcome to the forum. Sounds like you are having a trying time at the moment. I really feel for you.

I can recommend someone - she's in the outer East of Melb but I will need to do it via an email, as we are not allowed to post drs names on here (positively or negatively). I am just trying to work out how to get you the info, with Cherry's help.

Take care. Managing mania is hard work - I know as I've just brought myself down from a manic phase (no meds as I get hideous side-effects) with lots of quiet time at home. Basically I don't go anywhere I don't have to, as busyness makes me ill (either manic or depressed, sometimes both in succession).

Kind regards,

Kristin

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katoSenior Contributor19 Sept 2014, 6:15 pm AEST

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Hey yeah I have blue tooth in my car that I bought 2 years ago

I am lost at the moment everything is getting hard

One of our close friends came to us a few days ago for help.... it has been a nice distraction from facing our own reality,

They are going to the hospital for voluntary admission tonight and we are taking them.

So much easier helping and distracting then dealing with myself

I am full of guilt and shame I slept through my g.p appt today and missed getting a health plan done.

I have failed to uphold my promise tp mu wife and to myself

I would like to thank everyone for having this forum accessible for me to wrote my nonsense

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