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Something’s not right

Standing in a crowded room

Standing in a crowded room

I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs but won’t even be noticed.

or I feel like I’m riding the rapids in a leaky boat about to tumble over the cascades.

Nothing brings me pleasure not even chocolate.

I’m just going through the motions day in day out.

This past week I’ve really been battling the blues, and schiz for good measure. A lot of negative coping like self harm urges have been floating about.

Can someone just talk to me? I’m in a very dark place and unsure if the light at the end of the tunnel isn’t a train.

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@outlander it makes me think of nothing but the paste for a short time, so yes it works I think.

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i wonder if @Bunniekins could maybe help with some ideas?

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wow thats brave @Queenie im not a fan of hot and spicy things well not that hot anyway! would some lollies like warheads or something sour be helpful then?

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Most likely @outlander , anything that can sharply bring you back into the moment will work.

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might help then @Queenie

do you have much to do tomorrow?

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@Queenie yes i do hear unexplainable noises that is why i always have background noise of some sort like the tv or music or anything that i can use to tell myself it was just the tv or oh that must have been the fan. i am sorry you are feeling so unsuported at home. would it help to talk about what the voices have been saying

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hugs and hug @Eden1919 , @Queenie , @outlander , @Snowie @CheerBear

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@Eden1919 do your voices ever tell you to harm yourself? Mine do.... a lot.

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@Queenie yes they have it is very uncomfortable they have also told me to hurt others but i have told them i would never no matter what they said/would do. mostly though they tell me they are going to hurt me or my loved ones. if it is bad i just tell them quietly under my breath to f off or if i am alone i just blast music or smething to try and get rid of them. i am lucky that mine are mostly whispers but rarely shouting. the thing i find hardest to ignore is when they put thouhgts into my head it literally feels like someone has put their brian inside yours and it doesnt sound like you super weird anyway that is very hard for me to ignore. i am not sure how to make any of it stop and it sucks that there are so little options to choose from but i guess lately to get through i have just been trying to surround myself with things that make me feel positive. by that i dont even mean people or activities or material things. for some reason i feel most at peace when i am outside in nature specifically somewhere cool with a strong breeze or underwater. something about the feel of soft grass and the sound of the trees and birds and when you close your eyes and take a deep breath of fresh air and feel the wind on your face it makes me feel like connected it is hard to describe. but i find the more time i spend indoors and around man made items i feel more crabby and snappy. anyway idk if this is helpful for you but if you find anything that makes you feel true peace then run to it with all that you have

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I can totally relate to what you have said here @Eden1919 .

My voices however can go from vicious sounding whispers to full on shouting obscenities, especially of late. I feel safe in quiet nature environments like a deserted beach or the mountains. I don’t get out too often though and now my career has a job, even less time getting out.

I’m sorry if I triggered you in talking about them, I didn’t mean to cause discomfort.

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