what the heck am i even meant to do anymore

I am so fed up with all of this. i try and do something "good" and it just screws everything up. i tried going to bed early because i thought i needed to get up and that it would be good to go to bed before freaking 5am but no i couldnt sleep and just layed in bed for hours and didnt sleep until like 6 and then woke up again at 9 and ugh now all day has been really intense and confusing i cant focus enough to study and spent the afternoon singing and dancing and just really buzzed and now i am physically a little tired but still feel like i need to go for a run and i want to scream at everyone and i just cant ugh i am so fed up why wont this crap just stop for enough time for me to do what i need to and ugh i am just so done right now $#@#******#$#$#@******