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Why do people join forums?

I have joined a few forums in the past 6 years since being diagnosed with BPD, depression, PTSD. I was on one well known forum but was 'not allowed' to go back as I was on there too often. I still get angry with that decision, I tried to explain it was my BPD behaviour, it was my depression, and anxiety seeking out help but they refused and have 'banned me'. To me that was a kick in the guts, an abaonded I will never forget. How can a mental health forum a well known company ban someone who was so vulnerable and needed help, support and advice from others. I feel so betrayed.

I am totally blown away by the amount of people that are suffering from a mental illness/disorder.

But the fact is that if we didn't have this fantastic forum we wouldn't be able to chat to others who are in the same boat as I am; to be able to get some support, advice and even a virtual hug - it means so much to me and I am sure to others as well. We all understand the struggles, the pain, the hurt, the abandonment, the tears, we get it.

For me, I struggle so much to talk to my husband with indepth conversations about my mental health. I struggle with talking to him about my personal issues like depression and how it feels for me; my self harming episodes and my suicidal ideation. I guess my husband doesn't understand because he hasn't been there, he doesn't have depression, he wasn't sexually abused as a child; he doesn't know what to say.

But being on here I can talk to others because I know that some of you (if not most) can understand what we are all going through.

And by being on here and supporting each other we care, we all want to feel better, to be able to work, to be able to get out of bed each day, to be able to see that we have a purpose in life.

I am just so glad that I am on this fantastic forum. For me it is a 'release' of my emotions, my hurt and pain. And I can talk to others and don't feel so alone, abandoned or rejected.