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Exo's Exposé

Exo's Exposé

Looking for somewhere to hide in the Forum, no offense to anyone, I'm just kinda used to my own space - it feels safer to me. I often feel like I'm 'butting in' on other threads, I want to say something but it isn't 'in-line' with the current flow of conversation.

It rained here yesterday, dogs & cats weren't falling from the sky, but the grounds wet, there's puddles in my driveway & it's soooooooo sooooooo much cooler 😄 Guru Google even promises more!! After this weird wet stuff stopped dropping from above, I took the dogs for their walk, I do this almost every afternoon, but after a storm with close lightning strikes, my main purpose is to check the fence is still upright everywhere. I'm happy to announce it was all in tip-top shape 🙂 I noticed new puddle spots all the way around, I was sad that some trees had to be pushed over for the fence line, but the dip of their absence looks quite beautiful with a drop of moisture shimmering within. When I had completed the usual circuit I by-passed returning into the house-yard & wandered through to the dam. I think I may have been a little rain-drunk, I was hoping to see water in it, there wasn't any. I even went & stood in the very center of it's base, I think I was expecting to sink in mud - I didn't; but the cracks are gone . . . & they were huge. So if the Guru comes through with it's promise, there may yet be a puddle for my Staffy to play in 😉

I've decided to leave my camping trip to the beach for another week, rain wouldn't stop me - it rarely rains 24 hrs a day, but storms have - they often have devastingly strong winds that can break off & pick up reasonably heavy objects, that become dangerous ammunition. I've been emailing with the owners of this place, I'll still be in the off-peak season if I leave it another week - though I worry being so close to the Easter holiday, there's a more likely chance of more people. I keep telling myself I've just got to 'get over' that, that that would be all part of the experience - but I know I'm lying to myself. I picked this spot mainly because of the dog-friendly off-lead beach, but also because on the satelite view of Google maps I could see that there's no towns around it. It's one of the most isolated camping parks I've seen {that's within 5 hours of home, well - maybe just a little more}. It also admits it has old amenities, I saw negitive feedback about the place for those reasons - I think if you want to go to a resort . . . that's where you go - not to a place that describes itself as a rustic, old fashioned bush camping park 😉

Missing you Mazy Loads of love & support @Mazarita

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@Exoplanet Thank you for the kind words. if you dont mind me asking what made you think I have a new van? I dont own a van, maybe you have confused me with someone else here on the forum. Anyway glad you had a good trip and made the most of it sounds like the weather was a bit challenging, I liked your photo's it looks a lovely place.

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Sorry I got things mixed up @Jigsaw , I have a group of friends here & I don't often 'talk' to others. One of my friends invited me into a conversation with someone else & I got things confused. I thank you for your support & positivity

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@Exoplanet I have often thought ... the "why do I do it" ... about my musical things, my garden and my relationship style ...

Its usually about effort and doubting positive outcome.

I hope your memory bank overflows with good warm fuzzy memories. and laughter at the oopsies ... of wrong turns and soggy blankets ...

Despite them, maybe becasue of them you are still inspiring.

I have a sense of the level of your isolation and think you are incredibly brave.

Hugz hugz hugz

I think it was me who "introduced you: to @Former-Member who has the new van.

It can get hard with lots of people, but with good will we seem to have a community here which gives and supports many people.

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@Exoplanet Thats ok not really needed but I appriciate your apology, I can get a bit paranoid and it triggered me, all good.

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I got up this morning & put my summer long sleeved dressing gown on, after wandering into the bathroom & then into the kitchen for a cuppa . . . I went & got my winter one!!! . . . & a pair of velvet jiffies 😄 The temperature is wonderful 🙂 I didn't use the fan yesterday, although not constant & not as heavy as the beach - it rained on & off all day, enough that I have puddles in the driveway & I have a Dam Puddle!!! It seems I timed my trip away perfectly for {yes I'm going to say it again} the change of the season. I did have to use the fan the day I got back & the next {I think, I can't remember how many days I've been back now} But I don't even have a battery in the bedroom for a fan at night & I haven't needed it 🙂 In fact I put a light quilt on the bed last night {my favourite blanket is drying out on the line} & I pulled it up not long after I hopped in! My body's feeling a lot better, to say I was a bit achey is a bit of an understatement, the clickin' & clackin' has quietened up a lot too. I managed to get my Daughter to respond to a text while I was away, I think she's really struggling. She's seeing a Doctor & asked what my diagnoses was, I don't think much of the titles & mine are pretty average, basically depression, anxiety & annorexia; but I had one doctor get all excited when they told me they thought I suffed disassociation disorder, when I looked it up that did seem to describe what I go through the best. It's like it's not me, I'm watching a movie of someone else, I wonder if that's why the memories fade so quickly, because they don't feel like mine. Like the camp trips, they don't feel real, as if I'd made them up, like a story. I don't know how else to explain it. I hope it helped her, she hasn't said what happened, just that there was drama & she hasn't coped well. She did say that both her & my eldest grand daughter have been diagnosed with disassociation. I hope to continue tackling the camp gear today, as the stuff on the line dries I'll pack it away & then put the case away; then I can begin on the kitchen case & the general camp gear crate. Bit by bit it'll all dissapear from my lounge room floor, I think my fear is it'll make the memory dissapear with it.

Love to all that need or want it

Mazy @Mazarita @eth @outlander @CheerBear @Zoe7 @Appleblossom @Shaz51 @Bunniekins @Teej @Faith-and-Hope @Sophia1

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Yep winter gown and ugg boots on here.

@Exoplanet Chat to your pups about good memories, that might keep them alive longer.

Know what you mean about dissociation PLUS the limits of labels.

Sorry your daughter is having a hard time.

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💜🌷 @Exoplanet ☕️

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@Exoplanet 💛🧡

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Hopefully the memories of your trip don't all disappear @Exoplanet and if you find they are then you can read back on your posts here to revisit the good times while you were away.

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@Exoplanet I echo what @Zoe7 said. Plus luckily (well good planning) you have your photos here to look at too. They are simply beautiful.

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