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Exo's Exposé

Exo's Exposé

Looking for somewhere to hide in the Forum, no offense to anyone, I'm just kinda used to my own space - it feels safer to me. I often feel like I'm 'butting in' on other threads, I want to say something but it isn't 'in-line' with the current flow of conversation.

It rained here yesterday, dogs & cats weren't falling from the sky, but the grounds wet, there's puddles in my driveway & it's soooooooo sooooooo much cooler 😄 Guru Google even promises more!! After this weird wet stuff stopped dropping from above, I took the dogs for their walk, I do this almost every afternoon, but after a storm with close lightning strikes, my main purpose is to check the fence is still upright everywhere. I'm happy to announce it was all in tip-top shape 🙂 I noticed new puddle spots all the way around, I was sad that some trees had to be pushed over for the fence line, but the dip of their absence looks quite beautiful with a drop of moisture shimmering within. When I had completed the usual circuit I by-passed returning into the house-yard & wandered through to the dam. I think I may have been a little rain-drunk, I was hoping to see water in it, there wasn't any. I even went & stood in the very center of it's base, I think I was expecting to sink in mud - I didn't; but the cracks are gone . . . & they were huge. So if the Guru comes through with it's promise, there may yet be a puddle for my Staffy to play in 😉

I've decided to leave my camping trip to the beach for another week, rain wouldn't stop me - it rarely rains 24 hrs a day, but storms have - they often have devastingly strong winds that can break off & pick up reasonably heavy objects, that become dangerous ammunition. I've been emailing with the owners of this place, I'll still be in the off-peak season if I leave it another week - though I worry being so close to the Easter holiday, there's a more likely chance of more people. I keep telling myself I've just got to 'get over' that, that that would be all part of the experience - but I know I'm lying to myself. I picked this spot mainly because of the dog-friendly off-lead beach, but also because on the satelite view of Google maps I could see that there's no towns around it. It's one of the most isolated camping parks I've seen {that's within 5 hours of home, well - maybe just a little more}. It also admits it has old amenities, I saw negitive feedback about the place for those reasons - I think if you want to go to a resort . . . that's where you go - not to a place that describes itself as a rustic, old fashioned bush camping park 😉

Missing you Mazy Loads of love & support @Mazarita

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am here for you @Exoplanet

as you said you often do not have the energy or motivation

that is how you are feeling..I cannot find any words...

I can still let you know that I am here without any notification from you..

you are the one dealing with this not me..

so am here..

holding your hand and listening to you breathe..

you need not move or respond..

I can just be here'

Sophia 1

on the days that I do not leave a message

I am stil

I can just be here

love

Sophia1

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letting you know that you are still important and are in my thoughts @Exoplanet

I have been going through a whirlwind again myself very different to your circumstances..

I am here now..

mesmerisinga place to wander and find serenity

only respond when and if you feel up to it

Sophia1

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I don't think I've been on for a bit. Things have moved along with my health issues. I've gotten a palliative referral, but I haven't heard from them yet. I actually got an appointment with a Doctor who is going to travel to me, to help me with my 1st request of VAD - I find it ironic that I've gotten that appointment before palliative care has even contacted me. The oncologist told me it may be just a short few months, that was a bit of a shock, but in some ways it makes me feel better - I am that sick, the aches are hurting that much, I am close to the end.

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@Exoplanet ❤️ This is big news. it makes sense that it's a big shock.

Is there anything that the community can do for you over this time?

Sitting with you ❤️

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❤️❤️❤️ @Exoplanet ……

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Hello @Exoplanet

I must have sensed your presence.

I have just checked emails.

I was not expecting to read what was in your post though...

That is so much for you to hear and let soak in..

I imagine that you are feeling quite numb...

If it helps you rant away on here to release some pent up energy once you start to feel anything again..

If you do not want to write....don't...

this is about you..your wishes...

You have three people who have replied already..

So as little comfort as that might provide....I hope that it lets you know that you are so worthwhile in our eyes...

You are still our beautiful exoplanet despite how horrible life is and what you are feeling..

I will be quiet now and say no more...

I am with you all of the time in thought now..

love you Exoplanet

Sophia 1

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Oh @Exoplanet

I am here for you. Did not see earlier posts til now.

We have a new lady in my street who reminds me of you, she was out pushing a wheelbarrow and doing a driveway with rocks etc ... a wonderful fighter.

Keep believing you are worth basic dignity.

Hope the treatments help

Sending some harp music if you like ...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SQLyPYRuy4o

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Ohhh sending you lots of tender hugs my friend @Exoplanet , sitting with you always xxxx

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Hello my friend @Exoplanet

Am still here even when not visible..

As are you in my thoughts..

Staying with you in the way you wish..

Some friends for you..

who are so very loyal... compassionate...caring...forever friends....

they will be with you all through this now...

no need to reply...

you are the most important person here in this space now...

love Sophia1

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My Goodness @Sophia1 I don't know what I've done to deserve such a caring connection with you, but Thank you. Thank you @Shaz51 @Appleblossom @Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member & everyone that responds to my doom & gloom! I try to be patient, not complain too much & accept this stage of my life - but it's hard. My family, who has stayed away in droves for decades, all of a sudden love me & I'm not alone . . . but the fact is I am. I've had one Sister come, she couldn't come just to visit, it had to be to clean - though she didn't end up cleaning, she just ended up stressing me out to the max. Other than that I have a private arrangement with a couple that I met locally that bring out what I need from the shops & get me to appts (because I'm leaving them my property in my will as I don't have any money as such to pay them - that Sister has decided she doesn't like them). Mostly I'm sitting at home alone dying. It hurts, it makes me very sick & it's boring. I can't walk my dogs anymore, I can't drive anymore . . . hell I can't walk anymore!

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