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Exo's Exposé

Exo's Exposé

Looking for somewhere to hide in the Forum, no offense to anyone, I'm just kinda used to my own space - it feels safer to me. I often feel like I'm 'butting in' on other threads, I want to say something but it isn't 'in-line' with the current flow of conversation.

It rained here yesterday, dogs & cats weren't falling from the sky, but the grounds wet, there's puddles in my driveway & it's soooooooo sooooooo much cooler 😄 Guru Google even promises more!! After this weird wet stuff stopped dropping from above, I took the dogs for their walk, I do this almost every afternoon, but after a storm with close lightning strikes, my main purpose is to check the fence is still upright everywhere. I'm happy to announce it was all in tip-top shape 🙂 I noticed new puddle spots all the way around, I was sad that some trees had to be pushed over for the fence line, but the dip of their absence looks quite beautiful with a drop of moisture shimmering within. When I had completed the usual circuit I by-passed returning into the house-yard & wandered through to the dam. I think I may have been a little rain-drunk, I was hoping to see water in it, there wasn't any. I even went & stood in the very center of it's base, I think I was expecting to sink in mud - I didn't; but the cracks are gone . . . & they were huge. So if the Guru comes through with it's promise, there may yet be a puddle for my Staffy to play in 😉

I've decided to leave my camping trip to the beach for another week, rain wouldn't stop me - it rarely rains 24 hrs a day, but storms have - they often have devastingly strong winds that can break off & pick up reasonably heavy objects, that become dangerous ammunition. I've been emailing with the owners of this place, I'll still be in the off-peak season if I leave it another week - though I worry being so close to the Easter holiday, there's a more likely chance of more people. I keep telling myself I've just got to 'get over' that, that that would be all part of the experience - but I know I'm lying to myself. I picked this spot mainly because of the dog-friendly off-lead beach, but also because on the satelite view of Google maps I could see that there's no towns around it. It's one of the most isolated camping parks I've seen {that's within 5 hours of home, well - maybe just a little more}. It also admits it has old amenities, I saw negitive feedback about the place for those reasons - I think if you want to go to a resort . . . that's where you go - not to a place that describes itself as a rustic, old fashioned bush camping park 😉

Missing you Mazy Loads of love & support @Mazarita

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I'm pretty crook, again; I guess it's got something to do with the fluid building up in the lining of my lung, though I don't really understand how my lungs are making me sick - I'm going to make an appt with the Dr, when I see them I'll ask. I'm still reeling with how long it takes to get help, it's been 6 months & I still don't have a diagnosis & I've been sick for that amount of time. The Dr's aren't saying anything, they're not saying it's good, they're not saying it could be this or that & they're not saying it's cancer . . . they're not saying anything. They've handed me some anti-nausea pills, they've prescribed me pain medication, but they haven't said anything about what's causing the fluid or the sickness. I think I'm going mad.

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So very sorry that I missed your post.

I have been away and absent from the forums.

I am in a total mess and in no state to offer any effective words of support.

I can only say again that I care about you greatly and it hurts me to read of your struggles.

I truly hope that you get help that you so much deserve and need.

Sorry

have to go

take care

Sophia1

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That really sucks @Exoplanet. It’s invalidating to get no feedback at all. I’m sorry to hear what you’re going through, but glad that you are still posting about it. It gives us the opportunity to sit with you in this space, and uplift you in our thoughts and care for you. Sending virtual hugs across the digital airwaves …. 💐💕

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a quick reply from me @Exoplanet

I know is unheard of from me

"quick"

You are not bringing me down nor have you ever or ever will

I am already really struggling with life's throw ups.

Sending wishes of feeling better straight back that much I hope I can do effectively as you so deserve them

will write to you when I am more grounded as am all over the place.

I need to write to a few others who have been so kind also

please please please know how much everyone holds you here

Sophia1

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Hi @Exoplanet

Any medical update on your condition ? Still sitting with you ….. ❤️

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I'm going to the telehealth with the respiratory Doctor today, I had the xray yesterday & the radiologist said she thought there was enough fluid for them to do the biopsy . . . today I find out if the Doctor thinks there's enough there. I'm dreading the doctor saying I'll have to wait another month, the fluid makes a nasty pressure feeling on the right side of my chest, like a half wrap; I can't walk very far because I just can't get enough breath & there's constant nausea that leads to vomiting. I have 2 nausea medications now, but the stronger one only has 4 pills in a box - then I have to go & get another prescription. I have an infection under my right armpit, the doctor thinks it might be an ingrown hair, I've had ingrown hairs before & I've never seen anything like this on my body . . . except for my belly button - it looks like I have an armpit button!

Thank you so much for responding @Sophia1 @Faith-and-Hope

I'm pretty scattered at the moment too Sophia, I completely understand. I'm sorry you're going through such a difficult time. I think sometimes falling apart is the only thing you can do, it's like the pieces get so jumbled they've got to tumble, so you've got half a chance of picking them back up with any sort of organization.

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❤️ @Exoplanet

💐 @Sophia1

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I go for my biopsy on Tuesday. I'm very angry at my sister, she told me to just make the appointment & no matter what, she'd be there . . . she can't be there {well, she did say if I really needed her there, she would do it, but made it very obvious that she didn't want to be}. I'm really very anxious about this procedure, as it's going to be more painful than the last one . . . & she knows that. I really think she's just putting me in the 'too hard basket', she doesn't want to face the reality of my health issues so she is backing away as quickly as she can, to make a decent run for it. I mean she booked a holiday to England mid next year, when I will likely be very sick {if I'm still here}, I find that the opposite of supportive, I feel like she is abandoning me. She's even suggested that my other sister could help me now, a sister we've both had a huge falling out with & both of us are only just starting to talk to her again. I just really feel like it's all gotten too hard for her & she's dropping me like a hot potato.

I have no-one to help me through this stage of my life.

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Gosh, you've been going through so much physical discomfort and uncertainty @Exoplanet ❤️ I'm so glad you continue sharing with us and giving us the opportunity to sit with you in it.

I'm sorry you are feeling so dismissed and abandoned by your sister through such a tough time. I can imagine the whole process might feel quite isolating in itself. I know its no where near the same, but we care about you and we are here with you 🌻

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Hi @Exoplanet

I am holding hope for you that the health issue can be resolved once they work out what it is. My father had a recurrent health issue that stumped doctor after doctor and was depriving him of sleep for nearly a year. The issue ended up being something simple to treat that everyone had overlooked, and it resolved itself thereafter, but the lost of sleep for that length of time did cause him a lot of grief and worry.

As @Former-Member says, we are holding your hand and walking with you in the virtual world, and I hope that provides you some comfort re the medicals. The sense of betrayal by family is another matter, of course, but even on that score I hope the fact that many of us here, including myself, have suffered similarly on that front will help you to lean into the forums for the love and care of those who know you here ….. 💜🌷💕

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