Hello everyone,
Hi @oceangirl
Hi @Former-Member, thank you, of course it is more complicated than that, but I agree with you, a beautiful person is a beautiful person, however they look, and I don't think I'm ugly anyway, but it's hard not to believe and hurt my confidence given everything, I try. Thank you very much for your kind words! You're a nice person too :).
I do have interests and hobbies, music, guitar, writing, records, gardening, growing plants, bush walking, playing with my dog, girls (if I can say that), but yes my mood has been unmotivated unfortunately.
Thank you for your encouragement and making me feel welcome :).
Hi @Faith and Hope, I'll try to strive towards my goals, even if I'm repeatedly told they're not allowed to be my goals.
I agree with what you've said and I will try to hold onto it. I wish I had the mood now to reciprocate the effort you've made with your kind words to me. I hope I can but it is a little hard for me to find people.
And Hi @Former-Member, Wow!, and I hope you will be you too, you're great :), and I don't know how you knew those words to say, or how much they mean to me. I wish I could express, hopefully I'll have a better mood later to write more, but thank you!
Maybe you people can be my new big sisters :). I just hope that I can be here for you too.
I am sorry for my late replies, I was touched by all your nice words and I wanted to express that better, but I haven't had the mood, although I've been anxious about not replying too.
After seeing my new psychiatrist I feel a little misunderstood, since he thinks I simply suffer depression and anxiety, but I know myself, I know the life I've had, I know I have personality disorder traits which have made life torture for most of my life, and that causing anxiety and the frustration of people not understanding has caused the depression. So I'm feeling a bit frustrated again.
Thank you again to everyone for your understanding and kindness, you are beautiful people.