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You're most welcome @Jacques. All you can do is your best. Please try not to be so hard on yourself about the forum. I know what it feels like. Sometimes I feel so needy on here and feel like I just take. At other times when I'm feeling more stable I can give more. From what I've read you have given a great deal on the forums too. Perhaps this is your time to take for a while. I think you'll give when you are ready again but there is no requirement to do that from what I know.

It must be so very hard not sleeping. I have been feeling very intense of late but tonight I'm doing ok. That total anxiety is exhausting and you never feel like you can relax. It's ok. You'll work through it again one day when you can. 💜🤗

Hi Guys

How is everyone ??

Whats on tomorrow @Former-Member ?

Hi @Former-Member. How are you going now?

@Jacques I often struggle with sleep. Lately I fall asleep but then wake a few hours later.

How is your sleep going @Former-Member?

@Jacques

Your aunt might be someone who doesn't consider herself in terms of self-care and her own welfare. You don't know how this will play out in that regard .... you may have done her a favour without realising it. Her kids may have offered her money from time to time, and she may have refused it, thinking she could scrape by, and not wanting to be selfish .... but your observation may cause her to think about it some more, and she might then take money or gifts as she is offered them, improving her situation.

Try not to distress yourself in regard to your girlfriend. Don't forget she cares about you too, and doesn't want to hurt you. Presume on her understanding until you know otherwise .... stay on the positive side of things. We can spend so much time worrying about things that never happen ..... try to only worry when there is proof that there is something to worry for.

Your sleep pattern needs attention and quite possibly intervention @Jacques. My S2 went onto a melatonin medication earlier this year when his sleep hours tipped into daytime and was awake all night. Your body produces melatonin naturally, but stress can affect the production of it, so a GP can give you a course of it to get your system balanced again. I suggest you make an appointment and get on top of it quickly, if you can. Sleep deprivation will be working against everything else in your life at the moment, but it's a relatively easy fix.

Take care of you @Jacques. To be a carer, the golden rule is making sure you recharge your own batteries, or you end up needing a carer too ....

Hugs ❤️

yes @Former-Member, i can only manage a few hours most nights, it seems the thought of sleep is triggering me now, which is hard, most nights i lay awake in absolute fear of mum dying, wondering how i will cope without her. it occupies my thoughts so much. i can't believe i am an adult and still to scared to be away from mum.

hi @Faith-and-Hope, i have made a mess of things, i just should have stayed out of it, i think my lack of sleep over recent months has played a huge part in so many mistakes i have made. i just feel so confused and disorientated lately. i never leave the house or even my computer the past few weeks. only moving from it to bed when i can manage some rest.

you are right, i need to interviene in this, i can't keep going like this. it is affecting everything. it is not fair to mum or my girlfriend to burden them so much with my out bursts.

thank you so much

Tomorrow I have my fitness class. @Former-Member And then I have to try and do my TAFE homework. I'm hoping those endorphins will click my brain into gear. I am struggling more that I thought to do the writing tasks.

Have you anything on @Jacques

Hi @Former-Member I'm not sure if you are awake and need some distractions too to say hi here. I read your post and know you have a really full on day tomorrow

Oops I just read your last post. @Jacques I just read my last post and it was a bit ambiguous. I meant have you anything on tomorrow but I can now see that it's been hard for you to do much. It would help you feel better to help get some sleep. I don't cope at all without sleep.

What Is your day looking like tomorrow @Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member?

thank you @Former-Member,

no nothing on, just another day of the same. i need to just manage, sorry to keep you awake, their is no sleep for me, i am so anxious and wide awake, if i go to bed i will have a severe panic attack