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A new start (kind of)

MDTSenior Contributor07 Feb 2019, 12:25 pm AEDT

A new start (kind of)

Hi @Shaz51 @Zoe7 @outlander @TAB @Sam3 @utopia @Faith-and-Hope @Appleblossom @oceangirl @Sans911 @Snowie @Former-Member @soul @BryanaCamp @Former-Member @Bunniekins and whoever else is there in forumland

I have tagged some of you because we are speaking lots and some others haven't been around for long. If it's too much for you then that's okay I respect that. I won't take it personally.

I have decied to start up a new thread after my psychiatrist appointment today. Off to a new start.

Simply put, he made the point that I am pressuring myself to do stuff far more quickly than what I thought I could. When this approach fails, it feeds back into the loop that was there before (the "i am not good enough", "I have limited time", "I have wasted my life" etc).

He said it was good I didn't go to hospital and avoided ending up there. This doesn't help. What does help is changing the approach etc.

It was a good appointment. I see him again in the morning and then maybe someone else next week.

So it's not entirely hopeless or lost now.

He thought that pressuring myself to go and get this visa would be the wrong decision, given my state of panic yesterday and also this morning.

He said that I need to hold off on pressuring myself. By saying "okay now that I am in Australia for a bit longer, I need to go and find a job quickly" because this is simply unhelpful. It's the wrong attitude and will only feed back into those loops.

So am I feeling more settled? Yes. Do I know what is next? No. Does this bother me? No.

I see my psychologist tomorrow afternoon. I will get something from my psychiatrist in the morning about all of this I think, which he said he can send off as part of the extension on the visa (which lasts for 2 years anyway). It's just a case of extending the timeframe for when I can receive it.

This would effect my chances of working in defence, mi6 etc but these are already off the table for me given my history anyway. The same is the case for the military and police. It does seem like some things are cancelled out because of my MH, but maybe they are things I was never keen on anyways.

That's a side issue for now.

Going to the UK - still a goal. It's a case of how I get there and WHAT I do when I get there. We have established that rocking up with no job or place to live is too chaotic. Especially based on my experience and degree background and skills. But the UK is a goal. My Psychiatrist said "Poland is always there" so I think it might be worthwhile sending them an email asking if I could be either placed on next year's list OR alternatively get some of my money back given the circumstances. Again, not my concern for now.

My concern at the moment is explaining all this to dad. My Psych spoke to my mum today too so she is in the loop. I think he will understand, he wants what is best for me. It takes some adjustment and time. But this is life and how we live it.

THanks forumites. See you a bit later today

Edit: I heard today that one of my old tutees that i helped in 2017 is working and is at uni. Doing well and studying. I joked that we should meet up for coffee and then i can get a job at the same place lol. So today has had a silver lining. This was the student who nearly quit school. But I can only take as much credit for what they achieved. Most of it was them

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In response to: A new start (kind of)

TABSenior Contributor22 Feb 2019, 4:53 pm AEDT

Re: A new start (kind of)

If only I thought like that @Zoe7 but yes. Thanks

In response to: A new start (kind of)

MDTSenior Contributor22 Feb 2019, 4:57 pm AEDT

Re: A new start (kind of)

indeed @Zoe7
I got demoralised and stopped. But I've completed the main part of it. I'm still unsure if i actually need to make it as complex and detailed as it is but then i just asked a friend who works in govt. I'm unsure if i need to write it all out OR do dot points. Either seems okay to me, but then there always seems to be a better counterargument... AHHH lol

Leaving it for now. I've moved my pdoc appointment to monday so that ican do a charity session on next thursday. Finally get some money - even if it isn't much, and that it won't come in for a while. Gives me something to do.

In total I've only applied for 3 or 4 things in the past two days. But at least I know have a basic Govt level resume to utilise and adjust accordingly when I need to apply for government level stuff.

3 a day is hard when they are so copious.

I have my psych on wednesday and will get eh results of the careeer inventory which will be useful i think as well.

Anyway. Another week gone. Thanks all for your continued supporting

@BryanaCamp @TAB @Zoe7 @outlander @Sam3 @Shaz51 @Appleblossom @utopia @Faith-and-Hope @Former-Member @Bill16 @Ant7 @Adge @Bunniekins @frog @Sans911 @Snowie and whoever else I have missed out on

@BlueBay how are you keeping up my friend?

@TAB how did you go with it today?

To you all, thanks again for your help and support. Things are feeling like they are getting back on track in a good way, not in a rushed and desperate way. Although the past couple of weeks have almost got too boring I have been doing my best living within my means and also taking a minimalist approach. Making do on little. It's rejuvenating and refreshing to be honest.