Daily moodswings - how is it for you?

Hi All,

Today has been another turbulent day. Just in my head, nothing happened... Or nothing I identified that should have been a reason to feel the way I did.

Still upset and angry again. Something needs to change. I'm home now and relaxing at the fire - not looking forward to see the gp tomorrow - last time I wouldn't talk to him. I hate myself when I'm confused and lost.

Dropping by with a hug @Former-Member

@Former-Member - some great points about the cyclical nature of mood swings and about the positive aspects of our down times. Thank you for this...

Personally, I believe it is possible to get to a stage where you don't need to hope and live for the good times. Instead of just enduring the lows or the mood swings, I believe it is possible to peacefully, gently and acceptingly move through these periods without significant collateral damage to self or others...

It's about being gentle to yourself. I used to waste so much precious life energy, fighting myself and hating myself and being angry and frustrated that I wasn't better...

It was the mental equivalent of being annoyed at having a broken leg, and continually punching that leg in frustration... why, oh why do this? Why prolong the agony? Why add to the hurt?

It took a surprisingly long time to come to that realisation, but once I did, the insight set me free...

Instead of punching my broken leg, I accept my bed rest and quiet time, and focus on healing. For my mental health, I can't begin to tell you what a wonderful turning point it was...

I don't need to tough it out during the bad times any more, because I have transformed those bad times to "quiet time" good times within my head. By stopping the fighting and the anger about it, I then give myself the best possible chance of healing and recuperating...

We have a surprising amount of power to rewrite the reality around us using the faculties of our minds. Often, we make our realities much worse by projecting all of this internal hurt, struggle and conflict onto everything, and that has the power to sweep us away...

But with presence, observation, awareness and insight, we can rewrite our realities. It is even possible to project a calm warm loving gentle inner peace onto the most chaotic and extreme of life situations...

Life is indeed a grand journey, and reality is the soft clay that awaits our busy hands...

Hugs @Silenus

How are you and how is your job hunt going?

I have not much to say, I think I am in a cloud of nothingness at the moment. I just know things are not working out for me right now, I am not coping. I see my psychiatrist this week, we might have to make a few changes.

Thinking of you and walking barefoot through the grass. I think I should move to somewhere warm.

I've wondered same things..I've read a little of this thread it's interesting. I'm incredibly exhausted. Sometimes I'm agitated & annoyed at everything. It's hard work keeping on as a mum. Tick,tick yes my psychologist says I've high anxiety. But really I find that unhelpful. I normally walk a fair bit to keep mood happier. But some days I'm too tired. It feels like the same cycle, over & over..I think I'm relatively smart, learnt to adjust in life but the dips of low wear me out. I may well wake up thinking it's all rainbows tomorrow. I on & off dissociate..what's with that...like I get I'm triggered..is it merely a coping strategy? I think I'm just so tired, it was coming.

@Former-Member..err it's tiring..sometimes I go so far I wonder what the he'll are we doing here? I can reason out every monotony, I can seem as rational, sane,calm to cover the show but it's tiring. A life's work of masking tired! So I just keep going, fronting the frontiers, dealing the deals. My psychologist said a label is good and well, but then what to do with it?!! Lol...that's funny

@Former-Member..um the Times I have its like a heightened feeling, as if looking down upon myself, the world...It's all moving etc around me, but I'm not connected to it. I go somewhere else, leave in spirit but my body drives me around. I think it's undressed extreme stress it happens like this. Once I recall doing it, looking I'm the mirror & not seeing myself at all. That freaked me out. Long time ago. Ha,ha yes definitely magic wands are the golden ticket! 😜 Tonight I plan on quiet if possible. I think the lady next door O.D today. Kinda rattled me.

@Former-Member and @Former-Member

Uuuh yeah the exhaustion of being ourselves... I've refilled my batteries in hospital, but am now really cautious about how to create a sustainable style of living.

@Former-Member I understand your feeling of dissociation. I explain it as leaving the room.