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Trying to be happy, isn’t working

Trying to be happy, isn’t working

I really try hard to face life positively, but it just isn’t working. I don’t feel physically well, though there is nothing specifically wrong with me. I have had long bouts of depression since my early twenties, and I am back there now for the last three years. The black dog has now been joined by severe anxiety and due to some very traumatic events that left me without mt career of 50 years I now have PTSD. This has only been recognised recently. I have no interest in friends or family. Have no money have had to move home and this been another trauma for me that I can’t seem to move past.

I live with my youngest son who is 35 and has his own mh ussues and can be very difficult.i constantly think about death as my only option. But I just want to be happy, not deleteriously so, just happy. I have no partner and still grieve for my husband who died many years ago.

I can find nothing enriching in life

That is enough for now. Peri

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Re: Trying to be happy, isn’t working

Hello dear @Peri

Whilst it's lovely to see you, your update makes me sad to hear.

I am so sorry about the family blow up, that would hurt and I'm not surprised you feel the way you do. Give yourself time to heal Peri. You will. Sadly the relationship with your sister may not be what it was but time will allow you to accept what is.

I hold hope your heart heals quickly Peri. I understand you don't want to see friends but I recall you wishing you had kept in touch with a special one recently. Try to dig deep, if you can to connect with friends, it might make the difference and help to heal, just a thought Peri.

Please take care, always thinking of you dear friend 🌸💞💐

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Re: Trying to be happy, isn’t working

Dear @Peri

I’m So sorry this person was mean to you when you reached out to them.

I will retire soon and we can walk that journey together and go on new adventures.

Here with you today. 🤗💛🤗

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Re: Trying to be happy, isn’t working

sending lots of love @Peri
im sorry your feeling so low and have so many emotions everywhere. thats really how i feel too so i know how youd be feeling too. its not overly nice is 😞 but we're here for you

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Re: Trying to be happy, isn’t working

Thank you @outlander ,

i really appreciate that

peri

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Re: Trying to be happy, isn’t working

Hugs my @Peri ❤❤❤

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Re: Trying to be happy, isn’t working

Hello and hugs @Peri 💐💞

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Re: Trying to be happy, isn’t working

Thank you @Anastasia ,

i really need the message. I am very, very low and anxious. I dont know what to do anymore. I can’t talk to the people I usually talk to as I feeel I am just constantly whinging. Nobody neeeds that. I think about death a lot , I long for it. Peace, I just want peace

peri

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Re: Trying to be happy, isn’t working

Dear @Peri

I hear you, I see you, I can hear the pain you have. Anxiety is cruel.

I'm so sorry.

I wish for different for you.

For you to wake and the pain be gone. I understand that's "fluff" and not likely so I ask you please Peri to reach out. I hear you about not wanting to talk to your usual people. Have you tried talking to SANE, they've supported me in the past. I know our situations are different but you are so worthy of having someone to confide in, someone to listen without judgement.

Bottling it up Peri is like a cancer, it grows and eventually will make you physically ill. Please talk, keep talking, you are important and worthy of a voice.

Have you ever heard of Louise Hay?

She wrote a book called "You Can heal yourself" - she spoke at a conference Peri and most people were reduced to tears. If you can... have a read 💞

I'm here to listen always Peri, I think you are worth it.

Hugs and love always Peri and thank you for messaging me, it means a lot x

Some sunshine for you Peri x

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Re: Trying to be happy, isn’t working

hello and hugs my @Peri

seeing how you are and sending lots of hugs

sitting with you and having a cuppa

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Re: Trying to be happy, isn’t working

Thank you so much @Shaz51 ,

i really appreciate that

peri

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