I need support this week big time!

I hope you can turn around your feelings on this @Angels333. It was something you were never going to be able to hide forever. It's out now & that can't be changed.

From the sounds of it his reaction has truly surprised you. He must be a good man. Try not to let your anxiety push away someone who cares for you & sounds willing to be there & support you through this.

Now that he knows and it hasn't turned him away it can help you find some comfort in those darker times. When the SH thoughts start growing maybe you will be able to get yourself to reach out to him, stopping them getting to completion.

It is still going to be hard after hiding it from him for so long. Yes, you feel exposed, it's something you have worked hard to keep from everyone. But it is also an opportunity for you to start breaking the cycle. Take it slowly, but don't forget that when you need it you now have someone close that you can turn to. Many of us don't have that, it is something special. Talk to him about it if you can, lean on him you need.

Try not to see this as a setback but a step forward in your recovery. Your circle of support has grown, you have someone who cares for you in there now. This is a good thing, no matter how you're feeling right now. Take the time, adjust & accept it.

And as always there are those here always willing to help & support you too.

Take care, stay safe.

Thank you @Drac0 you are right having him is something not may others have.

I will try and use him to keep myself well.

At the moment I think we are both still in shock.

I know things can get better.

Thanks for connecting with me guys. I really don't want to trigger others. I know it's better that he knows I still feel unwell though and I want to make 3 days. I can take extra anti psychotics but not too much as I need to be careful with the prolonged QTc interval that my heart can't cope with the dose. That's why I had to half the dose and go through withdrawal a few weeks ago. It's a rare sode effect and I have it. I know I can beat this and I connect with this group one as someone who is a long long way from sh and ready to help others!

Hi everyone, I've made 4 days the voices are definitely bothering me but I haven't SH since Wednesday knowing that I have amazing support helos but it is getting difficult today

Thanks @BlueBay I think if I have come this far I can connect to lifeline etc instead of SH.

I really want to get better it's been 12months without a break.

Thanks @BlueBay . Xxxx