Recovery Wins

I guess a win for me is my area supervisor (who knows I suffer depression, anxiety) came into the pharmacy two weeks ago and said that the shop looks really good and that i should be proud of that. I thanked him for that and agreed that yes the shop does look.

With my having 3 weeks off in July to go to psych hospital and leaving the other staff to handle the store was putting trust into them and faith that they would do a good job, which made me very happy.

Sometimes it's the little things that go unnoticed. And it's so nice to receive a compliment from someone. I always thank the girls at the end of the day because I appreciate what they do and how much help they are for me.

Yesterday I managed to spend time talking to my psychologist normally, like a real person and tell her things i usually keep hidden, even from myself. I managed to agree to explore trauma with her, which is HUGE. I havent really addressed it yet - but saying I'm going to, it's super scary for me. But I think it's a step forward. (as long as i dont break in the process) - but i'm feeling like i'm in a space where i actually have people who will put up with me during my recovery and i dont feel so alone.

these are my first friends i've spoken with openly, and to my surprise they didnt run away. after so many hospitalisations, i feel like i may be able to tackle this without an admission. it is going to be super hard but i'm changing myself slowly - little things like getting out of bed and taking my medication (ok it's lunch time but i did it) and actually going to work when i feel like breathing is too difficult. AND reaching out when I need it. Gives me hope that i'm going to be able to survive this.

little wins

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@crimsonkitten wrote:

little big wins

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Yes, I was shouting 🙂

Lots of little wins this week.

• Making phonecalls, filling out forms, and negotiating deals with creditors. It sounds simple enough, but I struggle so much with motivation when I'm down, and creditors can be the absolute worst.
• Reaching out to an old mentor to explain what's going on and ask for help finding work - and being pleasantly surprised with the response.
• Dropping my uni workload to one subject, prioritising the subject I'd find most enjoyable, and actually engaging with the work.
• Standing firm on boundaries and articulating needs to my housemates, who listened and responded above and beyond what I expected.
• Starting my first novel! Obviously there's the looming question of whether and when I'll finish it, but the first tiny little bits are there.
• Joining this forum 😄

@Former-Member Congrats! I'm really nervous about going back to work in a couple of weeks. I'm sure it's not going to be easy, so good on you for doing it anyway.

It has taken me 4 years but I have halved the amount of anti depressants I need each day! I started on a massive dose with horrible side effects but was determined to get happier and make my way in life despite the brain zaps. After taking Omega fish oils for arthritis I discovered that the brain zaps disappeared and I've never looked back. Now I only swallow two pills instead of 4 and still feel I am getting better. Great progress for me after my shrink and GP both said I might have to stay on my super high dose for the rest of my life. Yayy!