Hi @Former-Member,
A few weeks ago I too was questioning whether it is worth to keep going. And sadly at the time whether it be conscious or subconsciously I decided that it wasn't.
It has taken a bit too get to where I am in the last few weeks while I healed and I know I'm lucky my injury was not worse but I have realised that part of my problem has been living in my trauma. I was abused badly as a child and as I got older all I saw myself was as broken. I haven't realised that to have made it through so much actually makes me stronger than what others expect.
I know that after seeing my son's face when I did what I did that it is something I will never put him through again.
Anyway you said you have been through trauma, believe me I understand how hard it is to get past it and live in the presant rather than the past. I have only just begun this journey of living in the now and I know that I have more dark days ahead but I also know that to move forward you need to step out of yesterdays shadow.
If what you are doing now doesn't make you happy then maybe it is to me to change routine find something that is not just pleasurable in the moment but brings you joy outside of the experience.
My self care activities stopped working for me because they started to feel like a chore. Now I do different things and one of my favourite is I make puppets and soft toys some I give to family the rest I take into childrens wards at hospitals it brings me joy to see them so happy a makes me feel good about myself
