All alone in lolliepop land

thanks guys @Shaz51@Snowie@outlander@Former-Member@Former-Member

i havent managed to study today yet. iv been busy with the house and now the kids are home. and one has a chest indection to.

i dont know how im going to get though it. i know im going to fk it up. and it will be the first one to. iv always have acheived 80% higher thoughout my units. most of it over 90%.

looks like i will be up late tonight when the kids are in bed , studying. then ill feel fk for tomorrow then.

i woke up in a very weird mood this morning. i cant even explain it. i was hot and cold. very snappy with the kids. didnt know what i was doing or where i was . i had to take my meds and more a lot more for anxiety. i just had to just to calm myself down. it felt like i was going through psychosis. but afer an hour or 2 , i started to calm down. i really hope i dont wake up like that again tomorrow. its not a nice feeling

Hi @lolliepop

Sorry today started of so difficult but glad you managed to feel calmer later on. Sounds like you are under a lot of pressure and ongoing high stress - be careful not to burn out, that could be already starting to occur? Very difficult to address when we are under so much pressure with many responsibilities, dead lines and commitments & worries - but please be careful not to overdo it.

I hope you get a chance to have some time out soon and enjoy some well deserved relaxation, better sleep and rest for that much needed balance. As continuing at such a high pressured pace can take its toll I have experienced. Hope tomorrow will be a better day for you. Look after yourself lovely. Sitting with you listening xx

Hi @lolliepop

@Former-Memberhas made some wonderful points there.

Sometimes it is about finding that balance. I know how hard it is with kids, especially if anxiety is up.

Hoping you wake tomorrow calmer than today.

i hope i wake up better to @Snowie@Former-Member

its just been a hard few weeks. letting go of my best friend , and keeping up with all the house stuff and trying to study. i just dont where my head is at sometimes. sometimes i feel like im loosing it. in my head.

i just dont know what im doing anymore....i feel so lost about everything

Hoping you wake tomorrow calmer than today. @lolliepop

one step at a time my friend , hoping you have a good sleept tonight xx

Hello @Snowie, @Former-Member, @outlander, @Former-Member, @Former-Member

Hi @lolliepop,

Sorry to hear things are so difficult right now, you have had a few highly stressful things happen recently with re-homing your dog, and one of your kids having a chest infection, and studies on top of that! It's great you have been receiving such wonderful support from the forums, if you are feeling that you might need some extra support tonight please consider calling one of these numbers. They might be able to support you to just focus on the next steps while you get through this difficult time:

Sane Help Centre: 1800 187 263 (10am-10pm)

Samaritans: 135 247 (24/7)

Lifeline: 13 11 14 (24/7) or Crisis Chat

Take care,

Tortoiseshell

@lolliepopxo

Sweetheart, I was not on line for you at that time, are you ok now???? I understand 110%, as do the others in here. We all get like you have/are, at times & it's very very upsetting & traumatic. @Former-Member @Former-Member @outlander @Snowie @Shaz51 are wonderful wonderful earthly Angels, you are so blessed to have them here for you sweetheart, believe me. All that you have & will do for your amazing family & Fur Family, you can not see at the moment, comes from your beautiful caring heart, I believe.

Please remember tho that you are only human, & only one human, maybe something must take a back seat in your life for now? Only you know what that may be, ok. You MUST come first today, & every day, as if you do not look after yourself first, then you will get burnt out, you don't want that do you @lolliepop you have a wonderful life from what I see. I had life saving spinal surgery not all that long ago. I have different priorities now, & I don't have precious children relying on me, but I do have a big Fur Family that are mainly rescued, & I know that I need to put myself first, as hard as it seems, sometimes, why? so that I can give my F/B's what they need, they need me as healthy, & emotionally balanced as I can be.

Please sweetheart, you need an outlet, & you need rest, you need good food, & something/someone to help you laugh, & be happy, breathe in fresh air, & get you living a lovely life again.

You have precious children & that is such a blessing in it's self. Children thrive on fun & laughter, as care goes out the window, with stress following, behind, when we all let go, & just be childlike. There is plenty of time to be an adult again, so please sweet heart, take your meds, let someone/some people, help you with your health issues, whether MH, or physical problems Find some time to eat your Lollipops, sing songs, draw pictures, colour in, paint, bake fairy cakes, watch cartoons, go skipping who knows, just do what makes Lollipop, release the child that you know you have within, & have some fun!!

I love you @lolliepop

I'm here for you sweetheart, & so are many others!

Relax & breathe in, & try & not take far too much on board, just step by step, you are only one person, we all are.

Love & Hugs!

Bella XO 🙂

I hope I have helped in some way, my heart is in what I wrote!