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OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Hi there

This is my first post . I'll try and make it brief.

I've had OCD for 30 years now and it involves constant visual distractions. I am always trying NOT to look at inappropriate (private) parts when talking to people and also my peripheral vison (eyes flicking back and forward) with people in the corner of my vision.

The peripheral vision problem may involve being distracted by people whenever they come into my field of view e.g at a cafe I must either face a wall where I can't see anybody or put an arm up to shield my eyes.

I remember the exact day in school (year 9) I was sitting in Geography class watching a documentary on the television and casually glanced at the crutch of the guy sitting to the right of me. I thought in my head that 'you can't look there!' and ever since that moment my staring/peripheral vision OCD has made life a struggle ever since.

As far as therapies are concerned , you name it and I have defintiely tried it, from psychiatrists to spiritual healers and all of the medications that that you can poke a stick at.

I had a break from traditional treatments for quite a number of years and tried the natural healing side of things, with the occasional visit to my GP for SRI scripts. At one stage I was borderline ready to give up on living entirely.

As a last resort I decided to reconnect with my psychiatrist to see if anything new regarding treatments had popped up. He told me there were not alot of options apart from the usual SRI medications .

Almost as an aside he mentioned that ADHD was closely related to OCD and that there can often be a combination of the two.

He told me there have been some success stories with the use of PRESCIBED STIMULANTS for some types of OCD. I was asked if I wanted to give it a try and after thinking about it for half a second I said 'yes'.

The following day I popped the new medication into my mouth and had my early morning walk with the dogs.

Roughly an hour later I noticed something I hadn't felt in 30 years.

Another dog walker was approaching and usually I would have strolled in the other direction as the thoughts and anxiety would overwhelm me.

But something had changed. It was as if an intencity volume switch had been turned down inside my head. I was able to make much better eye contact and felt a new internal confidence .

The level of intencity with the OCD thoughts had diminished quite a bit.

I have continued taking dthe stimulants everyday (morning and lunchtimes) ,I do not feel like I am on any medications at all, (not like some I have had in the past)

The new STIMULANT has helped my OCD more than any other medication.

I would say that the improvement is 50 to 60 % better, life is easier then it has been for many years.

I guess you could say the stimulant helps with the less intense OCD inducing environments ie going to the shops, walking in the park and general day to day engagements involving people.

Just thought I'd better let eveybody out there who suffers from a similar form of OCD that this new treatment helps me a lot and maybe it can help them also. I could not mention the name of the medication directly as per the rules of this forum.

Thanks and good luck

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Sry..just read the 1st message ..from tyler..ill hope to read the rest very soon.


Off to the cinema right now..that new 1969 moon landing....not a great idea in my weakened mental state..buy i have..to fight this...im just so tired of it.
D.

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Hi Dino1, Welcome to the SANE Forums. I am sure you get will replies to your post on OCD.

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Ok.

Last week i had a melt down. But knowing your not alone is a huge help. I have being very good since.

I have this...what can be described as aware of everyone around me...or as if my vision is all ways on. And i can see..aware of every thing.

As if people think im stareing at them.even though im not.

It is very hard at times to live with. I find just try to relax and think of all the good things you have. You can get by with it. Its just difficult.

But do talk to someone. Do get help. Dont suffer in silence.

Ive had this for over 28 years. You just learn to cope. Dont put yourself in suituations that you feel stressed. This can be hard. But talk to someone.

Look

No one. I mean no one is perfect. You will get better. Feel free to post here.

We are not alone.

D.

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Hi this guy,
Lola here, one of the moderators...Welcome to the forums!
I am concerned to read that your experience has left you feeling 'I am going to take my life'....please let us know if you are safe now?
I will also be emailing you.
regards
lola

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

I am in no imediate danger, thank you...

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Thanks for your concern, I have plenty of loving people to talk to, I am trying to build the courage as we speak my best friend is standing outside my door, the problems have recently spread to my close family and friends and I constantly rejected loved ones who want to spend time with me. I think this forum could help, until now I thought I was crazy.

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

I still to this day. Can not watch tv with people in the room ! Because im all ways on !! But thats ok.

Im trying harder every day to force myself into hard suituations. Last night i went out with 2 real good friends. And my problem went away for hours..just tjis morning i thought i was so relaxed.

I never felt as good for years. Cause people know i was feeling down.

This chat here. Has helped me so much in just a week.

I hated my self and body for years. But no longer. Say to yourself. I am worth it. I am a good person.

It gets better. I know how you feel. I was very low.

Dont give up. Talk to your friends. If not. Call me.

D.

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

How can I call you, I need to talk to someone with the same problem

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Ill contact the mod. Here. Might swop number.

It late here 11pm. Im off to zzz soon.

Buy ill contact them. Im sure they can help

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Hi Thisguy
The forum is a confidential space where forum members do not provide personal details [like tel numbers etc]
You can read more about the Community Guidelines
regards
lola
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