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OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Hi there

This is my first post . I'll try and make it brief.

I've had OCD for 30 years now and it involves constant visual distractions. I am always trying NOT to look at inappropriate (private) parts when talking to people and also my peripheral vison (eyes flicking back and forward) with people in the corner of my vision.

The peripheral vision problem may involve being distracted by people whenever they come into my field of view e.g at a cafe I must either face a wall where I can't see anybody or put an arm up to shield my eyes.

I remember the exact day in school (year 9) I was sitting in Geography class watching a documentary on the television and casually glanced at the crutch of the guy sitting to the right of me. I thought in my head that 'you can't look there!' and ever since that moment my staring/peripheral vision OCD has made life a struggle ever since.

As far as therapies are concerned , you name it and I have defintiely tried it, from psychiatrists to spiritual healers and all of the medications that that you can poke a stick at.

I had a break from traditional treatments for quite a number of years and tried the natural healing side of things, with the occasional visit to my GP for SRI scripts. At one stage I was borderline ready to give up on living entirely.

As a last resort I decided to reconnect with my psychiatrist to see if anything new regarding treatments had popped up. He told me there were not alot of options apart from the usual SRI medications .

Almost as an aside he mentioned that ADHD was closely related to OCD and that there can often be a combination of the two.

He told me there have been some success stories with the use of PRESCIBED STIMULANTS for some types of OCD. I was asked if I wanted to give it a try and after thinking about it for half a second I said 'yes'.

The following day I popped the new medication into my mouth and had my early morning walk with the dogs.

Roughly an hour later I noticed something I hadn't felt in 30 years.

Another dog walker was approaching and usually I would have strolled in the other direction as the thoughts and anxiety would overwhelm me.

But something had changed. It was as if an intencity volume switch had been turned down inside my head. I was able to make much better eye contact and felt a new internal confidence .

The level of intencity with the OCD thoughts had diminished quite a bit.

I have continued taking dthe stimulants everyday (morning and lunchtimes) ,I do not feel like I am on any medications at all, (not like some I have had in the past)

The new STIMULANT has helped my OCD more than any other medication.

I would say that the improvement is 50 to 60 % better, life is easier then it has been for many years.

I guess you could say the stimulant helps with the less intense OCD inducing environments ie going to the shops, walking in the park and general day to day engagements involving people.

Just thought I'd better let eveybody out there who suffers from a similar form of OCD that this new treatment helps me a lot and maybe it can help them also. I could not mention the name of the medication directly as per the rules of this forum.

Thanks and good luck

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Hi @Former-Member
I’m sorry for the delay in responding to this message .
I had computer problems .
Please stay strong mate.
I know exactly How you feel .
Please know there are others out there with similar issues.
While you are young you have a great chance to get on top of it l.
There are new medications coming up all the time , find a doctor you are comfortable talking with and don’t be afraid to talk about it. Perhaps an ocd support
Group in your are can help . There are people that.care, I know sometimes it doesn’t feel that way but it is
You are a good person . Dont tbe hard on yourself.
Please take care mate and all the best

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Hi Thomas, have you seen yourself a doctor yet? I just can't decide what to do.

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Tyler, hi - I found your post while searching a very similar issue that has affected me for almost the same amount of time (30 years). I would really, really like to chat online privately or via email to ask you a few questions if that doesn't violate forum rules. When I read your post I literally froze because I have never heard of anyone with the same type of issue(s) that I have struggled with, nor have the Doctors I have tried to get help from. Please let me know if there's some way I could chat with you, and if so what the preferred method would be. I greatly appreciate your consideration.

@Tyler01

Mark

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

I’d be happy to chat @Mark60
I’ll email the sane monitors and have the pass on my contact details
Cheers

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Thank you Tyler - I haven't heard anything yet, just FYI.

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Hi Tyler 01, Thanks for your reply. I was very scared to talk about my problems with my family members. For a long time i was just thinking about what to do about it. Then one night i just stopped trying to decide and gave a letter to my elder sister explaining all my problems. I'm happy that she understood it. She acted really kind-hearted and after a few days she took me to a good psychiatrist. The doctor i talked to acted sympathetic. He listened to all my troubles with OCD,depression and anxiety. I was diagnosed with some anxiety disorders, MDD. However, he prescribed me some medications including SSRIs. Ii's not been a long time that i've started eating them. But for my OCD, the way they're working is like a miracle to me. I'm improving slow. But now i can make better eye contact with people. I'd love to thank you for your first post. Without finding that, maybe i would never tell my family and seek professional help. I had a belief that this problem is not gonna heal.It's never gonna chage.My life's ruined. But I am now more confident and hopeful to live a better and beautiful life. I would tell everyone to keep hope and not hesitate to seek help.

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I’m trying to find out the name of the medication

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Hi all,

I just need to clarify our forum guidelines here. As part of our guidelines, it is important that the forums remain an anonymous space. This is for the safety of all those in the community. We do not allow emails or contacts to be shared to connect in the offline world. Again this is for safety of forum members. What you share here is moderatored in a safe environment, so please be respectful of this guideline.

You are welcome to start a new thread discussion and discuss your journey and share your experiences within the forum however!

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Hi @Former-Member

Sorry for the delay in getting back to you.

Sounds very similar to my OCD.

Chronic OCD can also have co morbidity factors such as ADHD, Depression,General Anxiety disorder and even Tourrtettes .

It all started manifesting for me at around the same age (as you 14).

I think it's hugely important to get on top of tretment straight away while you are still young.

My family was not supportive in the early stages (this did not help) and my friendships disappeared.

If you feel you can talk this through with your family I know it would help you very much.

This form of ocd was not very well understood 32 years ago, but today there are better treatments that can defintely help at the early stages of this type of OCD.

CBT therapy be a lot more effective at your age.

Also, I understand that it is a difficult version of OCD to talk about but you have to find a doctor/psychiatrist that you feel comfortable talking to . Try and find a specialist OCD treatment centre if there is one in your area and/or an OCD support group.

Please know that you are not alone.

Take care mate

P.S Good luck and try not to be too hard on yourself (although I realise sometimes how difficult that can be) You're a good person, all OCD ers are very sensitive people (and creative). OCD itself is still very misunderstood by the general public which can make it hard. Stay strong and all the best.

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Re: OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Hi @Shaz51

Works dropped off for me and my ocd is what it is.

But I have 2 dogs that I love and I'm physically healthy, so not too bad.

Thanks for the post, hope your'e ok too.

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