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OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

OCD staring / eye contact / peripheral vision

Hi there

This is my first post . I'll try and make it brief.

I've had OCD for 30 years now and it involves constant visual distractions. I am always trying NOT to look at inappropriate (private) parts when talking to people and also my peripheral vison (eyes flicking back and forward) with people in the corner of my vision.

The peripheral vision problem may involve being distracted by people whenever they come into my field of view e.g at a cafe I must either face a wall where I can't see anybody or put an arm up to shield my eyes.

I remember the exact day in school (year 9) I was sitting in Geography class watching a documentary on the television and casually glanced at the crutch of the guy sitting to the right of me. I thought in my head that 'you can't look there!' and ever since that moment my staring/peripheral vision OCD has made life a struggle ever since.

As far as therapies are concerned , you name it and I have defintiely tried it, from psychiatrists to spiritual healers and all of the medications that that you can poke a stick at.

I had a break from traditional treatments for quite a number of years and tried the natural healing side of things, with the occasional visit to my GP for SRI scripts. At one stage I was borderline ready to give up on living entirely.

As a last resort I decided to reconnect with my psychiatrist to see if anything new regarding treatments had popped up. He told me there were not alot of options apart from the usual SRI medications .

Almost as an aside he mentioned that ADHD was closely related to OCD and that there can often be a combination of the two.

He told me there have been some success stories with the use of PRESCIBED STIMULANTS for some types of OCD. I was asked if I wanted to give it a try and after thinking about it for half a second I said 'yes'.

The following day I popped the new medication into my mouth and had my early morning walk with the dogs.

Roughly an hour later I noticed something I hadn't felt in 30 years.

Another dog walker was approaching and usually I would have strolled in the other direction as the thoughts and anxiety would overwhelm me.

But something had changed. It was as if an intencity volume switch had been turned down inside my head. I was able to make much better eye contact and felt a new internal confidence .

The level of intencity with the OCD thoughts had diminished quite a bit.

I have continued taking dthe stimulants everyday (morning and lunchtimes) ,I do not feel like I am on any medications at all, (not like some I have had in the past)

The new STIMULANT has helped my OCD more than any other medication.

I would say that the improvement is 50 to 60 % better, life is easier then it has been for many years.

I guess you could say the stimulant helps with the less intense OCD inducing environments ie going to the shops, walking in the park and general day to day engagements involving people.

Just thought I'd better let eveybody out there who suffers from a similar form of OCD that this new treatment helps me a lot and maybe it can help them also. I could not mention the name of the medication directly as per the rules of this forum.

Thanks and good luck

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Hi @Shaz51,

Things have been okay. Its nice to see snow falling. Where I am located I don't get to see snow often.

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we never ever get snow up here @Former-Member, in 1974 we did get Hail and I collected them and put them in the freezer , ( now i am giving away my age here )

How is your weekend going

Hello @Riye, @Liverpoolgal, @Tyler01

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I'm having the same problem just lik yours.. Thanks for sharing your story..

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hello @Mylifeocd, @Former-Member , hope it was not too hot for you today and hope you are ok

Heelllloo @Tyler01, @Liverpoolgal

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I'm having ma exams and not able to concentrate a bit datzy i searched in d internet for it.. From ur forum i came to understand dat im also having this OCD.. When i go to ma exam hall even though i knew d answers bcz of d lack of concentration not able to write properly lik before..i was a smart kid and suddenly aftr ma college i began to show such symptoms...

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Whether that stimulants is newly researched

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Whether it is newly researched

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Hi Tyler01
This is the first time i'm sharing my problems and feelings.I also have the same problem but i never knew that it is related to OCD. My problem is exactly similar to you.I've been suffering from this for almost 2 years.One day i was looking at a girl's private part but i did not know what i was doing because i was deeply thinking about something.Suddenly she saw me.Then i came to my conscious mind and felt so ashamed.Since then i've got this problem and fear.When it started, it was limited to only a few females.But a few months ago i told myself what if i do the same thing with males?The fear got stronger.And now it happens while talking with males too.At a time it started with my own parents because they are my loved ones and i don't want to show myself as a pervert to them.Now i do this with my family members, my relatives, my teachers and strangers.This is horrible.One day while walking on the road i looked at a boy.Right then i got reminded of my fear.I got the fear of staring at them.Now even if i don't want to look at them,the corner of my eyes stare at them. Not only this.I also have depression.And my eye contact problem has made it a lot worse.I had a trauma 3 years ago which happened before my eye contact problem started.Slowly my life started to change .First i didn't understand what was going on with me.But later i came to know that l've been suffering from depression.Now it seems to be clinical.I have sleepig problems.Sometimes i can't sleep the whole night and feels like my thoughts are racing.Sometimes i wake up at 3 am and can't go back to sleep.And sometimes i sleep the whole night yet feel tired and sleepy the whole day.I've lost all my interests in everything.I don't cry.I don't smile.I am super negative.I hate my negativity.I've become so alone.My family,my friends never believe and understand me.From the outside i look fine.But what goes on inside my head is terrible.Like Chester Bennington sang in One More Light -"Just 'cause you can't see it doesn't mean it isn't there"

I don't know how to how to start getting help.Specially this eye contact problem is destroying my life.I feel shameful even when i think about it.I'm sick of shame.I'm only 15 and i don't want to ruin my life. Feels like i'm living in a nightmare and i'm never gonna wake up.

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I suffer from the exact same thing you have just described. What do I do?

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Hi @Thomas

Please try and connect with a good doctor/psych that you feel comfortable talking to.
Also if you can find an OCD support group in your area that can be quite helpful.
Try not to be hard on yourself mate .
All the very best and please take care
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