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Feel like no one likes me. The world is against me.

BradyBirdContributor18 June 2018, 6:08 pm AEST

Feel like no one likes me. The world is against me.

Hi all,

I am new to this and not sure where to start but I will give you all a quick run down on my situation.

I am female 38 years old. Grew up living with my grand parents (dads side) from the age of 6 wks. Dad who I did love, was a violent angry drug addict/alcoholic who was around quite a lot. Never really had anything to do with mum who is also a drug addict/alcoholic and gave up all her kids to everyone else.

The very small family circle I grew up with have all recently passed away. I was very close to my Aunty (Dads sister) who I grew up with at my grand parents. My Aunty was killed in a car accident 2nd Jan 2010. She was my Aunty but she was also like my sister and my best friend. We did everything together. My world fell apart and this is where things started spiralling downwards.

2 months after my Aunty passed, on the 10th March, my dad died from drugs.

Things were very different after these deaths. My Nan also lost her mum (my great grand mother) a year or so later and from that point on she became very sick and gradually got so unwell that she passed away 2nd November 2013.

After Nan, my Pop was the only one left who I really felt that close to, but I was in a relationship with a man that my Pop didn’t like and this caused tension and stress between everyone and eventually I felt like my Pop didn’t believe in or trust me anymore. My Pop passed away in July 2015.

Since my pop passed away. I have felt even more lost and not sure where I belong in this world.

I broke up with my boyfriend (now ex) last year 2017 in February.

I have lost so many other family members due to them taking my Pops word about my boyfriend I was with and them not understanding the depressive state I was/am going through.

I have been living with my brother (who is intellectually disabled) for the past 20 years or so and over the years since everyone close has passed away, I have felt my relationship with him fall apart and I no longer feel welcome to stay with him anymore. He has told me he wants to live by himself.

I feel like the world is against me. I try every day to wake up with a smile on my face and move forward but everytime I do something bad always happens and makes me feel like I’m wasting my time trying to be happy.

I really only have 1 best friend and 1 sister who say they support me but I am so scared something will happen one day and they will leave me too.

I would love to just find someone I could talk to. Someone who genuinely understands and actually wants to be a friend and listen.

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OwlunarSenior Contributor19 June 2018, 1:16 am AEST

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Hi @Appleblossom

I think ir's perfectly natural to speak to birds and animals - we speak to our pets after all and that is fine

My daughter is a horticulturalist and she started her career as a gardening apprentice - she would talk to the plants before she pruned them and it seems natural to me

Of course she was a teenager then - I don't know if she still does this - she was pretty strong into caring for plants though and they thrive for her

On the other hand I don't talk to my plants and I seem to have a brown elbow rather than a green thumb - maybe there is something in it

Dec

That's what THEY tell us to say anyway - we feel better in the chairs so throughfully provided

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AdgeSenior Contributor19 June 2018, 10:33 am AEST

Re: Feel like no one likes me. The world is against me.

Hi @BradyBird

Yes lots of birds.

Glad to meet you.

Adge

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Shaz51Senior Contributor19 June 2018, 11:04 am AEST

Re: Feel like no one likes me. The world is against me.

hello @BradyBird, how are you this morning

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BradyBirdContributor20 June 2018, 4:20 am AEST

Re: Feel like no one likes me. The world is against me.

Hi guys I had a bit of a rough day yesterday with a few things going wrong.

@Shaz51 Same feelings of "the world is against me" and "i'm not meant to be happy".

It's now 3am and I am feeling a bit better now.

Why is it worse in the mornings after I wake up than what it is at night before I go to sleep??

I am just getting ready to go to bed but I wanted to come back on and reply to everyone 🙂 Hoping tomorrow is a better day!

@Mazarita I did see a psychologist a while back that my GP referred me to. I had about 6 sessions with her but I wasn't really feeling any benefit from it. In fact it made me more anxious every time I had an appointment because I knew I had to talk about myself and I don't like talking about myself at all really. Our appointments were too far apart as well. I feel I might have gained more if I could have seen the psychologist every few days rather than every 2-3 weeks.

I have been on some AD's for a period of 2-3 years (which I was taking when I was seeing the psychologist) but I stopped taking them because I kept getting angry at myself for the times when I missed a daily dosage and I didn't like the brain zaps if I did miss a dose. The brain zaps really scared me.

Any how, my answer to your question is no. I do not currently have any proffessional help. My GP has the records of my situation but in the last 12 months or so that I haven't been taking the tablets, she has not once really asked me how i'm doing. She seems to be just another one of those doctors that only worry about their pocket.

@Appleblossom and @Owlunar.. I always talk to my birds and I never worry about what anyone thinks when it comes to them 🙂

My birds even talk back to me some times too!! lol 🙂 🙂

@Adge It's so lovely to meet you! I always enjoy meeting other bird enthusiasts 🙂

How big is your flock??

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AdgeSenior Contributor20 June 2018, 1:33 pm AEST

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Hi @BradyBird

Yes I'm enthusiastic about my birds,

& know a lot about our wildlife & plants.

I have about 60 finches.

Bengalese, zebras, canaries, goldfinches, red faced parrot finches, javas, orange breasts, 3 cockatiels, budgies, bourke parrots & 2 doves.

Adge

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AppleblossomSenior Contributor20 June 2018, 2:21 pm AEST

Re: Feel like no one likes me. The world is against me.

@BradyBird

It is alright to doctor shop. Next time you have any issue, suss someone else out.

It took me 10 years to get that. They have different personalities and someone else may suit - mesh with you - a bit better.

Take Care

Apple

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