Connect with people who understand what you are going through, seek advice and surround yourself with support. We're free, anonymous, and professionally moderated 24/7.
The-red-centaurSenior Contributor
I don't see the point in living anymore. I can't.
I've called helplines but tonight it's just not helped.
I've spent way too much time in hospital over the years and nothings ever helped.
I just can't anymore
In response to: I just can't.
BlueBaySenior Contributor
Great news @The-red-centaur 😊
In response to: Re: I just can't.
AppleblossomSenior Contributor
@The-red-centaur Your situation will present them with leading edge concerns.
Sometimes the doctors are confused, but feel they have to project certainty.
I am not sure about psych meds and sex hormones as I worry that the experts have not really worked out all the biochemical interactions. A lot of psych drugs work on the hormone system. It is an interrelated system called the endocrine system. Nobody really understands ALL about it, not even endocrinologists.
I also had a LOT of sexual and gender confusion growing up and even in the way I think, and the way males and females generally react to me. I am in menopause now and am going for the natural apporach, but guess what, my pap smear nurse had a go at me last check up for not having sex, and was advertising hormone replacement therapy to ensure I did not lose my voice. I had so much confusion, I cope by trying to reduce the number of complications. I did not even know til a few years ago that I had been sexually abused at 7, then when I was told by a Royal Commission worker who was looking at my file, and I reflected on all my experiences, lots of things made sense. At first when she told me, I dismissed it, but she kept on, and asked how I felt about it if it was another little 7 year old, not me. It was only I put little students who I knew in that position could I see how abnormal and wrong it was. That she persisted was the right thing for me at the time.
I dont know whats right for you, just talking, trying to take the sting out of it.
Take Care
In response to: Re: I just can't.
The-red-centaurSenior Contributor
In response to: Re: I just can't.
Zoe7Senior Contributor
That is great news @The-red-centaur 
In response to: Re: I just can't.
The-red-centaurSenior Contributor
In response to: Re: I just can't.
Zoe7Senior Contributor
The good thing is you are able to begin testosterone though @The-red-centaur - the time will fly by - especially if you need to go back to hospital to change meds. I mananged to stay out of hospital when we changed mine but I did have to see my GP everyday to make sure it was going ok. I saw my pdoc weekly as well and her and my GP were in close contact.
In response to: Re: I just can't.
The-red-centaurSenior Contributor
In response to: Re: I just can't.
Zoe7Senior Contributor
How has your first day back at home been @The-red-centaur?
In response to: Re: I just can't.
The-red-centaurSenior Contributor
In response to: Re: I just can't.
Zoe7Senior Contributor
You must be doing ok at the recovery program then to be going home @The-red-centaur
That is some good news
Help us push aside the stigma and discrimination surrounding complex mental health and change the way people talk about, and care for, mental illness.
SANE acknowledges the Traditional Owners of Country throughout Australia and recognises the continuing connection to lands, waters and communities. We pay our respect to Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander cultures; and to Elders past and present.
SANE values diversity. We are committed to providing a safe, culturally appropriate, and inclusive service for all people, regardless of their ethnicity, faith, disability, sexuality, or gender identity.
Help us push aside the stigma and discrimination surrounding complex mental health and change the way people talk about, and care for, mental illness.
SANE acknowledges the Traditional Owners of Country throughout Australia and recognises the continuing connection to lands, waters and communities. We pay our respect to Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander cultures; and to Elders past and present.
SANE values diversity. We are committed to providing a safe, culturally appropriate, and inclusive service for all people, regardless of their ethnicity, faith, disability, sexuality, or gender identity.
You’ll soon be able to use one secure login to access all SANE services.
For added security, members are now required to log in with their email address and password - member names are no longer supported for logging in.
If you had a Forums account before 19 May 2026 and haven’t set up your new login yet, you'll be prompted to set up your new secure login when you sign-in.
Fields marked * are required
