Hello @The-red-centaur
It sounds like you have had in incredibly tough weekend, and trying your hardest to be safe. I am sorry you are being sent home and unsure of your supports today, so it is good you are reaching out on the forums for some much needed support.
I am wondering if you have a GP or any other family or friends that you could get some support through today, even if it is just some company to help you feel less isolated in this.
Don't forget there are crisis services that are there for you to talk things through with, try giving one of them a go today okay;
Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat
Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 or online counselling
Samaritans: 135 247
If in immediate danger: 000
Lunar