how long can i hold on?

Hi @Snowie routine is really good, I don’t have much routine apart from cooking dinner. I sometimes accept if I have bad days and sometimes I just beat myself up about it. Try to sometimes go out with friends, just one person and perhaps a short coffee catch up. I’ve let too many people go over the years, or rather willfully excluded them, and it does get lonely. I have only recently learnt, that I don’t have to tell my story, it’s nobody’s business what I do with my day or how I feel, if I don’t want to share. I sometimes go for coffee and just listen. Many people love to talk and don’t even notice, if I don’t share or when I get ask something, I just give a brief reply and change the subject.

Hi @Former-Member my day today is a little better than yesterday, I’m colouring in which i haven’t done for a while. I like pretty colours. How are you?

Hi, that's good you are in a better mindset and today is better. That's good therapy, What are you colouring in? Good this way.

@Former-Member. Sorry only just read back on your posts. I'm glad others were here to help you. I'm having a bad night. Just realized I've missed taking my meds for 2 days. No wonder I'm flatlining. But after tomorrow's meds, I should be feeling better.
Coffee with a friend sounds good.

Good morning @utopia
I hope you got some sleep and things will settle with your meds.
I had some really dark days but hoping for a clearer day today.

Thanks @Former-Member - I had a good deep sleep last night - once I finally fell asleep.
Am feeling better this morning. Load of washing on and have done some grocery shopping.
I might sit in a sunny spot and read my book.
What are your plans today?

Hi @utopia @CheerBear

Hope youre ok and doing something relaxing this weekend. Im feeling numb the past few days, watching the world behind frosted glass.

Hi @Former-Member. It's nice to 'see' you again. Not sure if numb is a feeling that is OK or not for you? Sometimes numb can feel a bit like relief from the intensity of other feelings for me. Sometimes it's not nice too though.

Have you got any plans for today?

Hi @CheerBear
I’m going out for the day, I don’t want to, but I shouldn’t be home. How about you?
Numb is not good, good in a way that I don’t feel things, but I struggle to cope and don’t know what I’m coping with. And I know a big emotion will come after, normally anger. So I don’t know how I feel about numb.

It's great that you're going out if you know it's better to be out than at home @Former-Member. It's hard to do that sometimes. Is anywhere interesting/calm/fun/pleasant?

Numb definitely makes it hard to identify what it is you're dealing with. It's foggy, like that frosted glass maybe. I have big anger waves too. I feel explosive sometimes :S