Please tell me the truth.

Hi @Former-Member, thank you for your concern. Please be assured that we have reached out to @Eden1919 via email.

@Eden1919 Hoping your alright.

I have felt a temprary calm when I have made a decision to do it in the future. It settled my continual background noise where I was arguing with myself about it.

That was last year. Now I realise it was the relief from internal conflict that helped.

I did change my mind and I did reach out for support, after the date passed. Well my intentions slipped out with my Gp.

There are a lot of people on the forum who know you and care.

@Former-Member@Zoe7@The-red-centaur@Appleblossom@outlander Thankyou all for caring so much even though i dont deserve it at all. i feel awful tonight and i am really not coping my plans are still there only now the time is coming closer for me to go through with them. i dont feel like i can talk to anyone or like anyone can help i feel so alone and lost and i jst want to cry but that also makes things worse. i keep ruining everything and screwing everything up. i dont deserve to be here anymore this is all my fault i have failed again.

Hi @Eden1919,

tonight sounds overwhelming and tough for you. What steps can you take to keep yourself safe tonight?

Warm regards,

Kuu

@Kuu I honestly dont know anymore

Hi @Eden1919, I will check in by email, and send you your agreed safety plan. At times it can be easy to forget when feeling overwhelmed with intense emotion and thoughts.

There are so many troubled souls in the world @Eden1919

Most of us struggle and stumble.

I dont believe you deserve a final solution, it may appear temporarily desirable, but I firmly believe in harm minimisation.

I am not sure where your life will carry you, but hope you find ways to make it meaningful. These might only be clear over time. Be patient withyourself. Give yourself plenty of time.

Hope the mods have helped.

I need to log off. Hope to talk again.