I am- Overwhelmed & Traumatised I need your support!!

I was trying to sleep in my recliner chair, & I got over whelmed from the feelings in my heart, as it was more than I can handle. I had a surprise visit from D not all that long ago or maybe it was about 2 hours ago I've lost track of the time because of D coming here. I tried to talk to him but tears & emotions took my words away att while he was here & I tried to keep my distance from him. I did not want to let him in but I did let him in & I would not turn the light on as I did not want to look at him clearly, or himto see me clearly. He palyed with Ruby & was a little bit quiter that usual & he said he came here tto check on me. I never asked hi to come & check on me. I never let hi hug me or come near me & I tried not to be too get hrt by him being here. He had to go & I just walked to the dorr behind him & closed the security door so that he could not see me properly. He said that he is coming next week to check on me again. He told me he is getting married on the 27/10/18. I told him you will not have time to visit me before your wedding & that I will not allow hi to visit me after he gets married. I am so heart broken @outlander

If he loves someone else he should not just turn up at my door even if he cares for me when he knows that I am inlove with him?? @outlander

@outlander

You are right, to hurt my heart like that he could just talk over the phone no need to just turn up here when I told him I was inlove with him recently. He wanted to come here with his wife after they get married & take me out somewhere, would you believe that!!!!

I told him no way, one you are married I don't want to go out with you & youe wife so please don't!

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@outlander

I wonder why he wants another woman (me) in his life when he is supposed to love this M the fiance of 1 month. Is going to be his wife sooon. Yet he told me how much he thinks of me, & always will. Yet he knows he could have proposed to me now after all thse years & I would have said yes to him. I saw in his face that he was missing me. Unless I was mistaken? Because why did he need to check on me, if he doesn;t love me after all these years of knowing me. He doesn't even want to live with M after marring her, just stay with her every weekend & spend the rest of the week here in N where his home that he owns is??? It's rediculous now I come to think about it all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm going to leave him a phone message & ask him not to come & check on me or have anything to do with me, & I will not contact him either as I don't want the pain. @outlander