I am- Overwhelmed & Traumatised I need your support!!

@outlander

I just used my vicks inhailer I forgot about it, thanx for reminding me. I have pollens & what ever is in the air allergies atm. I got a Virus from the continue nasal drip down the back of my throat it went infected & i was put on the Anti Biotics a few days ago. The bad headaches are calming down a bit. I got over stress from Eude & what he said about himsels. I saw a woman I know who did to herself what he ssaid he thinks about doing. I was traumatised & shocked & it took me over 12 months to recover from it all. So I went shocked when he was going off the other day.

@outlander

I paniced a bit, & I was not going to come back to SF. I was worried about Sophia, & I came back for you & Sophia, & what I have been posting for her is helping her I love her & she does too much for others when she needs some happines in her life. I love you too & I don't want to leave you either. So if I go on Eude thread I will not get involed with all the trauma as it's unhealthy for me. I care but I have my Fur babies to think of & put first. I can talk to you because we relate & you don't stress me I love you!

@outlander

I'm still dealing with what happened with Darren, it shocked me Big time! it's very hard to talk about atm, but I think its for the best, I suppose? I am sorta grieving without crying now, I ma sorta trying to understand it, but it makes no sence to me atm.

@outlander

He told me that he is getting married to an older lady that he see's once a week she lives near Wollongong & she is his dance partner each week for Ballroom dancing up where she lives. He stays over nite with her goes dancing with her, then comes back here where I live next day & he does this weekly. They are getting married in October, & he will not live with her, just see her once a week for the dancing. In between they will live separate lives, & do their own thing without each other with their friends. In that time he wants to visit me, & do fun things with me, & he always hugs me for a long time & flirts with me. I told him no way. I told him I will not go any where with him & he should put his wife first in marriage & that it's not really a proper way to have a marriage.

@outlander

I am so confused at the monent, maybe her told Maria about me & she jumped in & told him to decide? Because he told me that he doesn't earn enough money to be my husband & that is why he did not ask me to marry him? She is a school teacher & has her own car, home, no kids. She is 16 yrs older than him, & told him to make up his mind what does he want to do about his friendship with her & he told her ok I'll marry you!